I just wanted to share what I feel is a big success for me.
i just had a thought in the shower this morning, of gambling, and instead of feeling desperate to go and somehow try to beat the blocks i have in place to gamble, I just felt pretty proud.
Instead it was a realisation of how little I think of gambling now just 63 days into my recovery. Gambling is no longer the first and last thing on my mind everyday... I feel blessed.
Of course I think about it sometimes but i’m going strong. I’m annoyed I didn’t do this sooner, but grateful I now have made these changes to my life. And it’s immense what a change it’s made!
I got paid last Friday 30th Oct, I still have money in my bank. I’ve mentioned before that it’s a huge deal for me as for years all my money would be gone on payday and i’d be stressed for the rest of the month. As well as not gambling, i feel so in control of my other spending too.
Anyway, I hope others who joined around the same time as me are in the same boat. And of course everyone else on the forum, I sincerely wish you all the best.
I don’t think i’m cured from this and will never let my guard down when it comes to gambling, but I’m so proud of myself so far.
Hi d1994 you should be pleased with yourself. There is nothing wrong with feeling good at not gambling as long as you're not complacent and think you've got it beat. It's really good that your thought process is not dominated by thoughts of gambling your mind is healing, I suddenly realised in my GA meeting last night that I'm coming up on 5months and I'm no longer fixated on counting the days. Always keep your guard up and enjoy reclaiming your life ! It's going good keep it up