there are over 2019 reasons to not gamble this year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks for the support stace but I went, couldn't manage without a stupid game of poker, oh well back to day one tomo

Thought so as you wernt on chat. It's ok, tomorrow is a new day Adam x

cheers stace ill be back on chat tonight

managed to not go to poker yesterday and just turned down a poker game tonight, small steps I guess but any day without a gamble is a good step in the right direction

Said no to another game of poker tonight!!!! well done me.  Went to the brighton game with my nephew today was great to see him and although the game wasnt amazing it was a great experience.  Day 4 of no gambling today, small steps one by one will lead me to great things im sure of it.  

Adam, I just want to say well done to you. I really hope you keep it up. Your doing well. I'm not coming on here anymore, but wanted you to know that I'm routing for you. You can do this, I know you can. Take care xx

ah bless thank you stace!!!!! I hope to see you on the site chatroom as you will be missed if you don't come on, you've been thru a lot and find yourself in challenging situations, I hope you strive to fight thru and succeed at life gambling free all the best adam xx

well im on day five again, succeeding at life, enjoying my weekend off work, looking forward to the footy next week!!!! champions league is back.  I feel that thi year has been successful for me as I have remained gamble free for the majority of the year and almost made it to the year mark.  My health for work has been significantly better and I am enjoying the fruits of being healthy and not putting myself in stressful situations.  I have taken a step back from the gym sessions for no real reason (just been tired after work), I feel I should look at my diet in order to lose a bit of weight and tone up,  someone at work is starting a weight watchers group and  I might join, im not that overweight but struggle to lose anything.  I feel if I look at stopping snacks or just keep myself to just having a couple a week then I should see the benefits.  over and out

here I am at the start of another week. I'm going to not go to poker this week, football is on tv so will stay in and watch it. Looking forward to the big games.

so this time last week I hit a hurdle and went to poker!! This is week is no different I'm sitting at home itching to go, I really don't know why i can watch the game at home and will be getting a better view of it at home than at the pub poker table. I guess this is the sticking point of where i can get to with this recovery.

Many thanks for posting on my diary Adam. 

I have noticed that you lead a varied and full life but do seem to be missing playing poker in the pub with your friends. 

I could suggest joining a choir, going to dance classes (where you will meet some nice ladies) or have fun and make friends at a drama group. However, they might not appeal to you so I won't mention them.

It is your recovery and only you know what is in your best interests and what will bring you the happiness and contentment that you deserve.

Take good care of yourself and remember that life can be a great adventure with opportunities to have fun whilst exploring the world around you.

If you happen to meet a lady called Eve and she offers you an apple, please don't eat it. Last time that happened it caused a lot of upset.

Redeemer x 

Posted by: adam123

to do more!!! The answer to that is not clear, I don't want to go back to weekends of work and Christmases not at home so no to retail again. I'm not qualified in anything else. I'm not a handy person so trades is out of the question. I think the grass is always greener and if I did leave id no doubt regret it. I keep asking for potential overtime but get little bits and that's all. I guess I should be thankful for a living and housing and a good future. U allways seem to look towards what u haven't got at the present thinking u can do better when in fact I should be very very thankful for what ive managed to achieve . Also I am helping out at work in a lot of ways so that's good just wish there was a bit more variety in my job, my manager said recently sorry for giving u all the S****y jobs. I don't k now really just need to see the positives andd stop thinking about improving areas of my life that don't need improving and start improving other areas!

Just read this back and its really hit home, just as I said it really I need to stop looking to improve areas of my life that don't need improving!!!!

Hi Adam,

Thank you for your kind words and support earlier in chat.

You are doing fine mate. Little steps to tackle issues you have - it all takes time and you are dealing with it just fine. 

Best

thanks for popping by bal, it was a good chat where emotions were running.  I hope everyone sleeps on it and feels better tomo.  Enjoy ur wine in the garden and spotify and ill see you in chat soon.

all the best Adam

Posted by: adam123

Today is 18th of august 2019 and ive had a mini step backwards in the past 2 months and have gambled in pub poker for small stakes.  Now ive had some great times doing this but ive neglected my recovery.  Thoughts were coming back of gambling online, in casinos, going to vegas when im older, going into bookies when wlaking past (thoughts of not actually doing them).  I set up a mini spreadsheet at the start to track all my gambling and after ten games I was 29 pounds down not bad), then last night won so now im up not by much but up on gambling so ive spent nothing on gambling for a year and 6 days.  Now earlier in the day I was looking up vegas holidays and thinking about gambling more and getting right back into the place ive been many times before, into a compulsive gambler mode!  So I thought id read back one of my diarys, so I started this one and flicked through quite a few of the pages and boy have I come through a lot to be in the positive situation with regards to gambling, my finances, work and most importantly my health.  Now I was soo happy spending more time with family and staying away from pubs.

 

So ive decided to reset my day counter, continue on this successful diary and hopefully remind myself each day of what ive been thru by reading back posts ive previously written.   

This!!!! Was the exact time and date of my turning point in life!!!!