well im on day five again, succeeding at life, enjoying my weekend off work, looking forward to the footy next week!!!! champions league is back. I feel that thi year has been successful for me as I have remained gamble free for the majority of the year and almost made it to the year mark. My health for work has been significantly better and I am enjoying the fruits of being healthy and not putting myself in stressful situations. I have taken a step back from the gym sessions for no real reason (just been tired after work), I feel I should look at my diet in order to lose a bit of weight and tone up, someone at work is starting a weight watchers group and I might join, im not that overweight but struggle to lose anything. I feel if I look at stopping snacks or just keep myself to just having a couple a week then I should see the benefits. over and out
so this time last week I hit a hurdle and went to poker!! This is week is no different I'm sitting at home itching to go, I really don't know why i can watch the game at home and will be getting a better view of it at home than at the pub poker table. I guess this is the sticking point of where i can get to with this recovery.
Many thanks for posting on my diary Adam.
I have noticed that you lead a varied and full life but do seem to be missing playing poker in the pub with your friends.
I could suggest joining a choir, going to dance classes (where you will meet some nice ladies) or have fun and make friends at a drama group. However, they might not appeal to you so I won't mention them.
It is your recovery and only you know what is in your best interests and what will bring you the happiness and contentment that you deserve.
Take good care of yourself and remember that life can be a great adventure with opportunities to have fun whilst exploring the world around you.
If you happen to meet a lady called Eve and she offers you an apple, please don't eat it. Last time that happened it caused a lot of upset.
to do more!!! The answer to that is not clear, I don't want to go back to weekends of work and Christmases not at home so no to retail again. I'm not qualified in anything else. I'm not a handy person so trades is out of the question. I think the grass is always greener and if I did leave id no doubt regret it. I keep asking for potential overtime but get little bits and that's all. I guess I should be thankful for a living and housing and a good future. U allways seem to look towards what u haven't got at the present thinking u can do better when in fact I should be very very thankful for what ive managed to achieve . Also I am helping out at work in a lot of ways so that's good just wish there was a bit more variety in my job, my manager said recently sorry for giving u all the S****y jobs. I don't k now really just need to see the positives andd stop thinking about improving areas of my life that don't need improving and start improving other areas!
Just read this back and its really hit home, just as I said it really I need to stop looking to improve areas of my life that don't need improving!!!!
Thank you for your kind words and support earlier in chat.
You are doing fine mate. Little steps to tackle issues you have - it all takes time and you are dealing with it just fine.