No looking back

Congratulations Stace & welcome to the Century Club

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100 days! That's amazing Stace! You're doing so well.  ?

J x

Hi Stace 

Im really well thank you for asking ?

Feel my old self returning I’m edging to that year milestone but just take it one day at a time .

Got diagnosed with a medical condition which I am currently waiting for surgery .I am now on medication so my symptoms are manageable anxiety was one of the many symptoms and can now see how  I was trapped in this circle with no way out !!now i have answers and meds have been able to stay GF thankfully as my anxiety was pushing me too gamble so when I got diagnosed in January I was able to break the Circle .

Still have days when I think could I but come to far now for that thought to be acted on .

Im so pleased for you for to get to this day today, I have always admired your honesty and how you let us know your struggles and still keep fighting another day to read now how far you have come Is wonderful

well done stace ?

xx 

Thanks aum, jess, Holly ? sorry you need surgery Holly, I hope it goes well when you have it and I wish you happiness and health.

So im 112 days gf, wow its been a roller coaster of a journey especially as my mental health isn't so good again. I'm always torn this time of year, it makes me happy at times, but very sad to. But I'm still gf so il keep on keeping on.

?would like to wish everyone at gamcare a merry Christmas, I hope you all have a lovely time and next years a good one☃️

merry Christmas stace xxxx

This year has been great for many reasons.

Let's celebrate in style 

Adam xxxx

121 days gf today.

Took a huge step today and managed to go out to the shops and finish my Christmas shopping, up til now I've done it all online but there was last minute bits I needed and I knew they wouldn't arrive in time so I had to go to the shops. I was so anxious, but managed it, even got home and wrapped half whilst the kids were at my mums ? i feel so relieved. So glad I managed it but equally as glad its over.

Had bad urges last night but fought them and didn't give in. 

Hi Stace,

Your recent post fills me with great joy and one which i am humbled to read. Your journey has been difficult and yet hear you are - still fighting and still posting with joy and success.

Season greetings to you.

Kindest regards x

That was lovely to read bal, thankyou. I've read your diary and I'm wishing you all the best and have my fingers crossed that all is OK.

Stace x

Hi Stace,

Hope you all have a wonderful day.

AL

So another year over, and what a hard one its been. 

Thankyou to peers and advisors for your support this year, happy new year to you all ? wishing you health and happiness in 2022.

Stace x

Wow! Just had a quick look to see how you were doing. Congratulations. You have gone from strength to strength!

Sorry your mental health isn't great but it is maybe just less numb from not distracting yourself with addiction. At least you've shown yourself you can handle it, without gambling.

Ah freda, thankyou. I hope your well ?

So here we are into 2022. Embrace it, some days will be tough as it is for all CGs. Just remember the future is in your hands not the addictions. It's about making the right choices.

Best

AL

Thankyou al. Take care of yourself, stace x

Soooo diary, were do i begin. 2022 not starting of good at all. 

I had a small gambling blip during Christmas but it was literally less than 20 mins and barely anything spent before I saw sense and stopped so I'm not counting it as a lapse, so im still 139 days gf.

Theres been a breakup in my family, I won't go into details but its a huge shock and my heart breaks for them both, although I fell out with one of them, I still love them and hate to see them in pain and struggling so much.

My daughter has been poorly,  she was referred to hospital, her appointment was last week and we were told she needs a scan on her kidneys and bladder. After a complicated pregnancy were laser surgery was done on her in the womb, we were told when she was born there could be complications as she got older. At her app we were told that scans are so far behind due to covid that it could take 3 months to get an app but we had a letter through today with an app for this coming Wednesday,  it was put through as seriously urgent which has terrified me. I've had huge urges to go gamble and escape the worry for abit, but she's my baby girl and I think even gambling wouldn't make it go from my head, I need to be strong.

My mental health isn't good either but I have a really good support network around me and my mental health worker has been so good, she getting me a review with psychiatrist and hopefully get my meds highered.

So thats me at the mo. I'm sad to see others struggling on here, and just want them to know I'm here if they need to chat.

Stace