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(@spendlikewater84)
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So, Saturday I made a conscious choice to give this torment the boot.  I spent all day Sunday and feeling so incredibly low.  Yesterday I slipped and spent £20.  So what it’s just £20, right? No wrong!!!! Why can’t I just give up, some may say I’m weak. I agree I am weak.  Time to get some proper help.  I feel positive all day then the next day life will happen and I’ll do a quick spin to paper the cracks.  Except no amount of paper will ever be big enough.  Been in contact with gamstop today.  

 

 
Posted : 11th June 2019 1:32 pm
bdog
 bdog
(@bdog)
Posts: 305
 

Get all your blocks in place Boo.

Remove opportunity. You can do this 

 
Posted : 11th June 2019 4:49 pm
(@spendlikewater84)
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Thank you.  Just gamstop all registered 🙂 

 
Posted : 11th June 2019 4:51 pm
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(@alan-135)
Posts: 503
 

Your not weak Boo , it's just addiction doing what it does best keeping you going back because it promises you so much but gives you nothing but misery . 

It took me many years to finally stop the rot but I know those feeling's all too well , the ones where  you have  a few day's away from gambling thinking your some how cured and  addiction whispers in your ear " It's ok this time will be different " ? , trouble is mate it never is and the cycle just goes back on repeat . 

There's no magic pill or cure for this and it is about just pushing through one minute , one hour , one day sometimes and not giving in until you finally break that cycle .

It can and will change my friend but you really have to want it more than you want that next bet 🙂 . 

Take care fella .  

 
Posted : 11th June 2019 5:02 pm
(@spendlikewater84)
Posts: 108
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Hey all

so I’m still waiting for gamstop to restrict me.  The urge is getting unreal it’s 3 days gf now. I thought I’d have a quick go, but blocked myself from a new site instead?? I feel amazed and in shock!! I wanted to do it so bad, but didn’t.....

 
Posted : 13th June 2019 1:43 pm
 A 9
(@alan-135)
Posts: 503
 

Hey BOO 🙂 

We fight so much with our inner self " Should I shouldn't I " and " Nobody would know " ? are all thing's I went through , the trouble is nothing changes and if we give into temptation the whole cycle just carries on and we have another " DAY 1 " to contend with and we all know that feeling right ? . 

Like anything the thought's will pass my friend but until they do you have to distract the mind for a while and it really doesn't matter  how you do it as long as you do it , I think my worst was going and having a cold shower 🙂 , the shock took the urge away but made something else dwindle too :)) , not ideal but it worked :)).

Stay well and keep on keeping on 🙂 

 
Posted : 13th June 2019 2:54 pm
(@spendlikewater84)
Posts: 108
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Cold shower!!!!! That’s a brilliant idea!! 🙂 

 
Posted : 13th June 2019 3:14 pm
(@spendlikewater84)
Posts: 108
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Struggling massively 

my gamstop account is now active 

trying every activity to keep busy but it’s getting to me massively 

any ideas on keeping busy 

 
Posted : 14th June 2019 12:53 pm
 A 9
(@alan-135)
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Posted by: Boolooser56

Struggling massively 

my gamstop account is now active 

trying every activity to keep busy but it’s getting to me massively 

any ideas on keeping busy 

Load's , got a paint brush and a roller set ? Oh and some sandpaper too :))

 
Posted : 14th June 2019 1:36 pm
(@spendlikewater84)
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Haha already done painting this morning 

 

 
Posted : 14th June 2019 1:46 pm
 A 9
(@alan-135)
Posts: 503
 

Oh Bug ger :((

 
Posted : 14th June 2019 2:21 pm
(@spendlikewater84)
Posts: 108
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So 

yesterday 11 days gf and I had a OVERWHELING urge to go to casino.  I started to walk there and half way I stopped.  I thought about how sick I felt last time I was there and how to be skint but have something was better than being skint and having nothing!! 

So, out of ten years, I turned away and walked home!!!!

 

feeling super proud of myself and I don’t know what came over me but when I got home cried with relief!! 

12 days gf now and I’m determined to beat this!!!! 

 

X

???

 
Posted : 21st June 2019 10:09 pm
(@sarah1976)
Posts: 85
 

Well done boo.

 

incredible to fight that strong urge and come to your senses and do no damage.

 

awesome.  As an extra precaution can you ban yourself from the casino?

 

sarah 

 
Posted : 21st June 2019 10:14 pm
 A 9
(@alan-135)
Posts: 503
 

Be very proud Boo :)) 

Sarah's right Boo , you can contact SENSE which will give you a national Casino ban or do as I did and walk to the front desk and tell them you would like to self exclude , It's like sticking two fingers up to gambling and gives you so much pride :)) . 

All the best :))

 
Posted : 21st June 2019 11:05 pm
Vin47
(@vin47)
Posts: 73
 

Well done boo

 
Posted : 21st June 2019 11:10 pm
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