So, Saturday I made a conscious choice to give this torment the boot. I spent all day Sunday and feeling so incredibly low. Yesterday I slipped and spent £20. So what it’s just £20, right? No wrong!!!! Why can’t I just give up, some may say I’m weak. I agree I am weak. Time to get some proper help. I feel positive all day then the next day life will happen and I’ll do a quick spin to paper the cracks. Except no amount of paper will ever be big enough. Been in contact with gamstop today.
Your not weak Boo , it's just addiction doing what it does best keeping you going back because it promises you so much but gives you nothing but misery .
It took me many years to finally stop the rot but I know those feeling's all too well , the ones where you have a few day's away from gambling thinking your some how cured and addiction whispers in your ear " It's ok this time will be different " ? , trouble is mate it never is and the cycle just goes back on repeat .
There's no magic pill or cure for this and it is about just pushing through one minute , one hour , one day sometimes and not giving in until you finally break that cycle .
It can and will change my friend but you really have to want it more than you want that next bet 🙂 .
Take care fella .
Hey BOO 🙂
We fight so much with our inner self " Should I shouldn't I " and " Nobody would know " ? are all thing's I went through , the trouble is nothing changes and if we give into temptation the whole cycle just carries on and we have another " DAY 1 " to contend with and we all know that feeling right ? .
Like anything the thought's will pass my friend but until they do you have to distract the mind for a while and it really doesn't matter how you do it as long as you do it , I think my worst was going and having a cold shower 🙂 , the shock took the urge away but made something else dwindle too :)) , not ideal but it worked :)).
Stay well and keep on keeping on 🙂
yesterday 11 days gf and I had a OVERWHELING urge to go to casino. I started to walk there and half way I stopped. I thought about how sick I felt last time I was there and how to be skint but have something was better than being skint and having nothing!!
So, out of ten years, I turned away and walked home!!!!
feeling super proud of myself and I don’t know what came over me but when I got home cried with relief!!
12 days gf now and I’m determined to beat this!!!!