My diary, my new life, my fightback

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holycrosser
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Had a lush day Sat.i didn't gamble and I won't gamble today. I'm off in to town today with my OH as planned and yesterday I did my long walk as planned.

Planning is key.keep busy and change ya life.

 
Posted : 24th March 2019 6:08 am
holycrosser
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Had a great day out shopping with my OH, never ever gave gambling a thought, she thought it was great and loves the “new” me, this hang up of having to win back everything I spend is my undoing but I’m learning that it ok to spend money like normal people.....this weekend has been the most chilled for a long time, proving that planning stuff around gambling times is a great way of keeping me occupied.loved it all.no gambling at all and never once had the urge, I pray I can beat this.

 
Posted : 24th March 2019 7:25 pm
SG95
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Well done mate! Keep going.

 
Posted : 24th March 2019 10:24 pm
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Yo, good on ya . Keep those thoughts of how much you loved it , to fight that addiction should it coma a knocking at you door . Take care , stay strong ...... Shiny 🙂

 
Posted : 25th March 2019 5:22 am
holycrosser
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Thanks folks, halfway through another day and no gambling and still positive, need to plan something tonight, light walk with dog and chilled cooking dinner, no electronics after seven and bed a bit earlier at 10pm, keep the routine going.

 
Posted : 25th March 2019 1:33 pm
Paulscottb
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Good effort. Keeping busy with healthy pursuits is the way ahead

 
Posted : 25th March 2019 8:40 pm
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Love reading this. Everything I see about someone staying GF for another day and the positive vibes it brings, is so good!! Keep it up!

 
Posted : 26th March 2019 12:15 am
holycrosser
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Another day gambling free.today and tomorrow I have my boss with me at work so the triggers through the day will 100% not happen...I.e. go to betting shop.one common theme as I read through the diaries is how easy it is to relapse just when you think we have cracked this.the mind plays games, the temptations are everywhere for gambling. Thankfully online is a no go now, best thing I did.coming up to pay day, all my bills are planned and there will be money spare.not one penny will go on gambling, my new life can live for now on what little I have.Some people can't *** that 3-4 years of paying back debt and staying free is a long old time, patience is tough but it's the only way .It's hard but that's the reality.30 years it took me to get here, 4 years and I will be fully free to enjoy and repair.im in it for the long haul because the other choice is to lose everything.everything.no thanks

 
Posted : 26th March 2019 6:32 am
holycrosser
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14 days gambling free just noticed.doesnt sound much and it's daunting to think that hope is a long long way away but I have to do this.

 
Posted : 26th March 2019 6:51 am
holycrosser
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Bit of a stressful day at work but gladly no incline to gamble.so today I remain gamble free and tomoz I won't gamble. Pay day tomorrow night and another test.im planning to be busy in the next few days to stop any thoughts of straying to the dark side.

 
Posted : 26th March 2019 8:35 pm
holycrosser
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Another busy day another gamble free day, pay day tomorrow

15 days gambling free

 
Posted : 27th March 2019 7:43 pm
Hazard2myself
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Hey dude thanks for dropping some some kind words on my diary the other day. Well done for smashing 15 gamble free days. Like you've mentioned above patience is the key. When I first started my diary I couldn't wait to rack up GF days and now I'm GF for 423 days. Just keep doing what you're doing mate the future is bright. We take one day at a time. All the best dude. Take care.

 
Posted : 28th March 2019 12:40 am
holycrosser
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I hope one day to match that number .Thank you for the support. I'm sat looking at my bank balance and I've a lot to pay out, normally I'd be gambling right now but I know it would get me nowhere,I've a little money to live off so I need to stay strong. Today I won't gamble

 
Posted : 28th March 2019 6:30 am
holycrosser
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Another loan paid off today and no temptation to go and blow it in the bookies, the absolute need to finally HAVE to stop is proving a great driving force, all my bills are paid and I’m left with what I thought I would be, I can survive and another month is paid off debt, I’ve also not added to the debt now for 17 days, today I haven’t and will not gamble

 
Posted : 28th March 2019 3:09 pm
holycrosser
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This will be my 17th day gamble free , it’s tough but I’m holding strong and determined.

 
Posted : 29th March 2019 10:35 am
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