As I start this now properly all I can think of is how much damage I have caused myself and others around me for the sake of gambling sure it was enjoyable at the start but all I have done is just ruined my life more and more chasing losses and trying to claw my money back that I have wasted over the years putting myself in debt stealing money from family members when I have wasted all my money and now I have no job have overdrafts that need paying and I can't even bring myself on coming clean with my family and telling them that I've been gambling again they bailed me out 2 times already I can't face a third time I just can't but i dont know what else i can do
You are not alone, many of us have been there.
We all need to start somewhere and unfortunately it is normally the bottom.
Best thing to do is get your blocks in place and come clean. Get the pain out of the way and then you can start to move forward.
Talking always helps, it will get easier and you can beat this ...but must face into it.