DAY 13
with the EFL playoff final weekends this weekend I have felt a urge to bet on the finals but I haven’t done any bets I have held strong and stayed gamble free even though the temptation has been there even though I don’t want it to be.
with what’s been going on it’s been tough to deal with sometimes in my head but I have managed to stay strong just like I promised to Amanda and to myself.
lots of cuddles for Amanda and Bailey today again and had a nice meal out with Amanda’s family even though the reason for it was a sad one .
roll on tomorrow the journey continues on the right path 🙂
DAY 14
I have reached the two week mark, and with all that has been going on this has been no easy task.
Again with the playoff finals I could so easily give in and bet on them but I haven’t . I’m not looking forward to next week knowing it’s champions league and europa league finals.
Went and saw the new Aladdin with Amanda tonight to take her mind off of things and I really love the moral of the story as I think it is so similar to gambling addiction, willing to do anything to get the most you can and in the end you end up with nothing anyway.
just my silly way of thinking probably but it touched me watching it.
overall two weeks in and still determined to NEVER gamble again. And why would I want too? Mainly in these two weeks I’m no longer having mood swings and being temperamental.
Gambling Martin = horrible Martin
non gambling Martin = happy Martin.
happy Martin is here to stay!
Day 15
the last temptation of EFL playoffs is over and I didn’t bet on any of it so is a proud day. To some people this may sound pathetic but it really is proud for me.
Spent the day with Bailey and Amanda going on a massiiivvveeee walk. Bailey loved it. ??
This really is easy. If you handover all financial responsibility, ban yourself from all betting sites and high street stores, and finally stop watching all professional sport, gambling is no longer on the radar.
If you're no longer interested in who's beating who, who's placed where on whatever table, and who's won whatever race, then there's no reason to even think about gambling. You don't need to prove yourself or to others that you're the God of picking and winning on a toss of a coin.
Look at this weekend you stopped watching and spent proactive time with the family.
Lesson to be learned for all?
After years of struggle I have only recently realised that this definitely is the only way to do it .
And doing anything helps if I’m sat at home bored doing nothing that was always when I used to gamble. So determined to keep myself occupied from now on
This really is easy. If you handover all financial responsibility, ban yourself from all betting sites and high street stores, and finally stop watching all professional sport, gambling is no longer on the radar.
If you're no longer interested in who's beating who, who's placed where on whatever table, and who's won whatever race, then there's no reason to even think about gambling. You don't need to prove yourself or to others that you're the God of picking and winning on a toss of a coin.
Look at this weekend you stopped watching and spent proactive time with the family.
Lesson to be learned for all?
After years of struggle I have only recently realised that this definitely is the only way to do it .
And doing anything helps if I’m sat at home bored doing nothing that was always when I used to gamble. So determined to keep myself occupied from now on
Plan the days, make yourself do different things then it gets easier, the rush goes away , it’s a lifelong battle mate that is never going to be easy and never defeated fully but this will start you on the right path.
good luck
This really is easy. If you handover all financial responsibility, ban yourself from all betting sites and high street stores, and finally stop watching all professional sport, gambling is no longer on the radar.
If you're no longer interested in who's beating who, who's placed where on whatever table, and who's won whatever race, then there's no reason to even think about gambling. You don't need to prove yourself or to others that you're the God of picking and winning on a toss of a coin.
Look at this weekend you stopped watching and spent proactive time with the family.
Lesson to be learned for all?
After years of struggle I have only recently realised that this definitely is the only way to do it .
And doing anything helps if I’m sat at home bored doing nothing that was always when I used to gamble. So determined to keep myself occupied from now on
Plan the days, make yourself do different things then it gets easier, the rush goes away , it’s a lifelong battle mate that is never going to be easy and never defeated fully but this will start you on the right path.
good luck
Yeah I am doing that like I’ve said can’t have the time of just doing nothing for hours and hours as that’s when my mind goes wandering .
Thankyou ?
Day 16/17
been going well over the last two days. I have been getting increasingly snappy and short tempered though as I knew the europa league final was happening this evening. I totally avoided watching it though which was for the best definitely.
Still trying to support Amanda after what’s happened with her nan we had a sad task today of funeral clothes shopping , something no one wants to do.
with the champions league final coming up I know I’ll get snappy again but going to try my best to not be horrible as we all know gambling addiction brings out the worst in everyone especially when not gambling.
end of day 17 coming up and still gamble free, still heading the right way.
DAY 18
Its getting tougher now I find myself thinking about gambling and getting snappy still. I still have not gambled though and plan on keeping it that way.
me and Amanda went to longleat today so that was a really nice day then came home to spend hrs with bailey.
where I’ve been finding it tougher last couple of days I spoke with Amanda tonight about my thoughts which I never do normally and that has helped too. And helps her to understand more too which she likes.
onto tomorrow as another day goes the next will be easier. ?
Day 19
the end of mine and Amanda’s week off is here and I was worrying that all the free time I would of caved and given in to gambling and although I have had thoughts of gambling and urges I have kept busy and managed to resist to this point.
we took bailey on a 3hr walk today that was sooo good! Walking is underrated I find it so relaxing for my mind more than anything.
the champions league final is tomorrow and like some people have suggested I’ll probably avoid watching it as it’s just easier. I don’t support either team anyway I’m not that lucky , I support Swindon . So I don’t particularly have a interest in it anyway bar the fact it’s football.
As every day passes I feel happier in myself . Still only short into this but still going . Just gotta take it day by day. Thanks for the support everyone’s on all the forums. So many amazing tips on this site
DAY 20
I said I wasn’t going to watch the UCL final but I ended up watching most of it , watching it didn’t make me feel like betting but I made sure I avoided the adverts as we all know what they’re like.
It was nice to enjoy sport without pressure of having a bet on the result and just being able to enjoy the match, like I used to be able to do years ago before I ever bet.
spent the rest of the day helping Amanda’s dad clear out their garage of junk down the tip nice to be helpful and not waste time doing nothing
DAY 21
I have now achieved 3 weeks gamble free! Something I am proud of and am determined to push on from and reach a lot lot more .
Today has been good taking Bailey to Amanda’s parents and having a good day with them all . Bailey was especially lucky to have the nicest meal he’s probably ever had thanks to his grandma sue.
so yeah a nice day today gamble wise has been pretty good too I think although I’ve been chewing my nails but I don’t really know why, definitely aiming to stop the nail biting. I like it when I have nice finger nails.
Back to work tomorrow after our week off in many ways this will make keeping off gambling easier as I have less spare time of just not doing a lot I find work keeps my mind and body occupied so it’ll be nice to be back.
Roll on tomorrow
DAY 22
Back to work today so had very little time to even think of gambling, all went well gamble wise so I am still 100% gamble free.
We got told the date for Amanda’s nans funeral today finally too which will be a tough day.
on too tomorrow still on a good path
DAY 23
while no gambling gets easier life doesn’t as now tomorrow morning I have to take Amanda to hospital as she has to spend the day in there possibly over night as she has a really bad chest infection.
I know it makes no logical sense but I feel all these bad things are happening because I gambled before .
as I said though still haven’t gambled at all and each day is getting easier but these speed bumps along the way do make it tougher but will get there
Oh Martin. I read your entries every day.
You are having a bad time of it. Just try to keep strong. Your doing amazing pal.
Things can only get better.
Hope Amanda gets well soon. X
Oh Martin. I read your entries every day.
You are having a bad time of it. Just try to keep strong. Your doing amazing pal.
Things can only get better.
Hope Amanda gets well soon. X
Thankyou it means a lot , your doing amazing too!
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