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cheers stace xx

Hope your feeling better today adam xx

Interesting debate last night in chat about whether we should need to be on gamcare and whether it helps to be on gamcare remembering about gambling every day rather than just going our separate ways and leading a life away from gambling memories etc.  Im in two minds about this because I feel I would benefit from not thinking about gambling as much but I would miss the hours each day I spend on here.  I would however like to see friends on here succeeding and the ones succeeding are unfortunately in the minority.  I for one am not succeeding.

That is a good point Adam and it has caused me to have a little think and here is what I have decided.

Relapsed on a few occasions but that does not mean my GamCare Recovery Program has been a failure. Quite the opposite in fact and I do believe I have benefited greatly from keeping a diary.

Obviously I could have done better but consider myself to be in a far better place mentally than when I arrived here and during that time I have always paid my bills etc on time. So I can claim partial success.

Trust all is well with you my friend and hope life treats you well over the coming week.

Stephen x 

Hi Stephen, yes we are definitely improving, but would we have done this without being on this site? would we be worse? would we be better? who knows, the fact is that I enjoy being on this site trying to help others and hope that in the future we will all succeed with our battle.

I'm still thinking about money too much, I'm going to try and just think about money only when needed. I have a spreadsheet where I put my finances and I'm going to only add to it when absolutely necessary .hopefully this should lead to thinking about more important things in life.

bet Fred just sent me an e mail saying theres 23 pounds in my account. I might try to email back to Sa send me a cheque for it as I'm on gamstop now.

well suprise suprise bet Fred didn't email back. They realised that they could no longer prey on me for more money. To be honest they shouldn't have emailed me I'm registered to gamtop and they must know that!!!

well I phoned bet Fred and they said there was only twenty P In my account!!! So I said they sent me an e mail saying there was over twenty pounds and i wanted to withdraw it as I'm a member of gamstop, so I forwarded their email to them (like they haven't got it) and sent my bank details that they asked for so hopefully I get I now. I wont be scammed as i che ck my bank transactions every month and it actually was bet Fred. Just think they were trying to hook me in again which is really unethical as I'm a member of gamstop. Thing is if I wasn't on gamstop id defo be gambling again on it and they know that.

Well another day im ill but not gambling horray to that.

Having another day off work, feeling a bit better now although still coughing a lot.  Back at work tomo for one day then on holiday until Monday.  Really looking forward to the time off just oing to relax to the max, have only made plans on the Saturday so I can fully recover before then.

on holiday now till Monday so just had a lie in!!! Very nice!!!! Still ill tho

Enjoy the break. I'm full of cold to so sympathize. Hope you feel better soon. 

Stace x

cheers stace xxx, went to poker tonight and although didn't spend much I did go on their fruities spent five pounds on them but not happy about that, gonna have to have another look at my recovery and make sure I don't take my debit card out with me again (could have ended badly). I'm lucky. Still have 25pounds left of my 175 pounds for the month so gonna get some food and coffees on Saturday with some mates. Was watching some youngsters who werre on the fruit machine all night hope they don't get hooked but looked like they already wre. Need to get better before going to work Monday so lots of rest tomo and more medicine needed.

Having thoughts of going to the pub and playing on the slot machine again, d**n those machines theyre soo addictive!  I have thirty pounds to spend tomo and nothing to spend today, just got to be strong.  Strong isn't my thing tho im weak.  Just got to get thru today.