A discussion turned into an argument and things were said that can't easily be undone if ever.
I, at times was itching to respond with equal nastiness but I managed to keep my composure and text very little back in response.
That said I was told I was not forgiven for things that happened forty years ago. My stubbornness wants to end for good this relationship as my brothers anger is based not on a truth but a warped perspective.
I did not ask for forgiveness though my actions as a child were not always good. I have for many years tried to be in a positive relationship with him, sharing moments and holidays etc.
People always say they see strength in me but I am weak. This has floored me and made me vulnerable. Maybe this is too personal to be written here but it's what I feel.
In my weaknesses I will find strength.
Or in my weakness I will find more weaknesses.
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