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Murlo
(@murlo)

Hello diary,

I don’t know what is up with me today. I have just been one big bag of emotions. Anything and everything is making me cry. My colleagues must think I am nuts....It’s probably just tiredness. I had a couple of hours sleep last night and then awake again to be able to work from 3am. Tonight is an all nighter work wise. I am hoping I get chance to have a bit of sleep tomorrow to recharge a bit. 

I have a counselling session by phone tomorrow and that will be great timing although I really don’t want to be as ridiculously soppy as I am today because I have been doing really well.

Stay safe everyone xx

This post was modified 5 months ago by Murlo
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Posted : 23rd March 2020 5:30 pm
Murlo
(@murlo)

I have just realised it is only Monday. My counselling is Wednesday 😊 Gives me another day to sort myself out a bit!

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Posted : 23rd March 2020 7:28 pm
Murlo
(@murlo)

I am so pleased my counselling session is by phone tomorrow. I am beginning to look a touch rough from not being near a bed for a couple of days 😊

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Posted : 24th March 2020 10:55 pm
Ford2017
(@ford2017)

Hi Murlo hope you’re well. Strange times at the moment with everything going on. Thanks for Your support whenever I’m online it is helpful and appreciated. 

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Posted : 25th March 2020 9:56 am
Murlo
(@murlo)

@ford2017, thank you so much for popping by, that means a lot. I hope you are keeping well my friend. 

 

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Posted : 25th March 2020 9:23 pm
Murlo
(@murlo)

Evening diary 

I actually managed to nick a few hours sleep last night which I think will have done me the world of good. Apparently I am looking a little more sparkly than I did 😊. It’s been another busy work day and I have some things to do overnight but not quite as relentless as it has been. I wouldn’t swap what I do for anything else though. I really do love it and I thrive because of my work tbh. Purpose is important to me.

I had my counselling session by phone today. The first phone session I have had. I was in good form and I know that my counsellor could see that. She was pleased with my progress over the last month and so am I. I have a few people that I am grateful to for getting me through my most recent difficult time, hubby, counsellor and Drama to name a few. I do genuinely feel different now. 

If I go on I am in danger of being as soppy as Drama says I am (she has a specific term) so I will pause 😊

Oh, and Boo - I ordered some jigsaws. They are going to be fab 😘

take care all xx

 

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Posted : 25th March 2020 9:34 pm
Livelysoul
(@livelysoul)

Hi Murlo

Thank you for popping by my diary and sharing your kind, supportive words. I’m glad you managed to get a bit of sleep and feeling a bit better in yourself. I hope you and hubby are feeling much better and have got over the worst.

I certainly can relate to the part about work and having a purpose. That’s definitely true with me also. Work is what keeps me on both sane and motivated. 

Also with a lot of thanks to you I’ll be hitting 28 days - four whole weeks. Thank you for your your ongoing support and when I needed it the most. 

Sending hugs from a distance. 

Lonely x

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Posted : 26th March 2020 11:41 am
Murlo
(@murlo)

Afternoon diary. Just a short pop in.

Finished self isolation today. Started work from home at 3am. By 10am I was back in uniform, glad to be helping where it is needed most right now. Having a bite to eat and then it is on call overnight so I suspect I might not see a bed for a while. I wouldn’t change my job for any other in the world though. 

Not a thought for gambling. Haven’t had for some time and I am very grateful for that. 

Stay safe everyone xx

 

 

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Posted : 27th March 2020 6:21 pm
Aum
 Aum
(@aum)

Thank you for visiting my diary Murlo.

Sorry to read that you have been self isolating  for the last two weeks. Hopefully now you are as fit as a fiddle and raring to go.

All is well with me and I am gamble free for that is just the way I always longed to be.

 

Stephen x 

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Posted : 27th March 2020 7:29 pm
Murlo
(@murlo)

Today has been an all sorts day but I am very happy. I went out early to shop, my first experience post coronavirus and I was humbled with how I was treated. I am fairly emotional at the mo and I did not want to cry in the supermarket but everyone was just so lovely 😊. I am in a good place. I might even pop into chat tonight and see how it goes. I think I am better placed to handle things now or at least know when to step back. 

love to all x

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Posted : 28th March 2020 5:19 pm
Murlo
(@murlo)

Evening diary, still gamble free 😊

I didn’t handle yesterday very well in the end. Maybe it’s helpful sometimes to have a reminder about things that trigger me and make me bit vulnerable. I made some poor choices, the main thing is that I don’t do the same again. I looked pretty shocking most of the day but I think I am beginning to look a little better. Drama says my sparkle is coming  back and that’s good news 😊

stay safe all xx

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Posted : 29th March 2020 6:13 pm
Murlo
(@murlo)

Hi diary, 

It’s been a while...The last few days have been full on and I have kind of lost track of time, day of the week, my name (joking on that one!). I have lost the sense of routine just because work demands are so great and unpredictable. I felt a bit battle weary for the first time yesterday evening when I learnt that I would have to get up and out of the house for work at a ridiculously early hour, even early for a lark like me. I crashed out pretty early last night on the sofa which is NOT like me. That’s my hubby’s specialty 😊. At least I got some sleep in though. 

Arrived home tonight to a wonderful feast of my favourite food which was awesome. It was just nice to unwind and eat a proper meal for a change.  

Back on my travels in the wee small hours of the morning again so I am hoping for a few good hours sleep. To some extent I am pleased that I don’t have too much time to process things at the moment as some of it is not easy stuff at all. I know I can’t ignore it completely though because at some point   I will stop and think so I just need to prepare for that. I am waffling. Time to stop 😊

150 days gamble free today. That’s a plus 😊

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Posted : 1st April 2020 8:12 pm
Aum
 Aum
(@aum)

Murlo SuperStar.

Congratulations on 150 Days Gamble Free.

Wishing you happy days as you continue on your great adventure.

 

Stephen x 

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Posted : 1st April 2020 8:50 pm
Vinnie
(@vinnie)

Congratulations 🥳 murlo 150 days gf , your doing amazing , hope your well 😘😘

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Posted : 2nd April 2020 12:57 pm
adam123
(@adam123)

Hi murlo, thought I'd pop by and say hello, all the best you're doing great

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