I don’t know what is up with me today. I have just been one big bag of emotions. Anything and everything is making me cry. My colleagues must think I am nuts....It’s probably just tiredness. I had a couple of hours sleep last night and then awake again to be able to work from 3am. Tonight is an all nighter work wise. I am hoping I get chance to have a bit of sleep tomorrow to recharge a bit.
I have a counselling session by phone tomorrow and that will be great timing although I really don’t want to be as ridiculously soppy as I am today because I have been doing really well.
Stay safe everyone xx
I actually managed to nick a few hours sleep last night which I think will have done me the world of good. Apparently I am looking a little more sparkly than I did 😊. It’s been another busy work day and I have some things to do overnight but not quite as relentless as it has been. I wouldn’t swap what I do for anything else though. I really do love it and I thrive because of my work tbh. Purpose is important to me.
I had my counselling session by phone today. The first phone session I have had. I was in good form and I know that my counsellor could see that. She was pleased with my progress over the last month and so am I. I have a few people that I am grateful to for getting me through my most recent difficult time, hubby, counsellor and Drama to name a few. I do genuinely feel different now.
If I go on I am in danger of being as soppy as Drama says I am (she has a specific term) so I will pause 😊
Oh, and Boo - I ordered some jigsaws. They are going to be fab 😘
take care all xx
Thank you for popping by my diary and sharing your kind, supportive words. I’m glad you managed to get a bit of sleep and feeling a bit better in yourself. I hope you and hubby are feeling much better and have got over the worst.
I certainly can relate to the part about work and having a purpose. That’s definitely true with me also. Work is what keeps me on both sane and motivated.
Also with a lot of thanks to you I’ll be hitting 28 days - four whole weeks. Thank you for your your ongoing support and when I needed it the most.
Sending hugs from a distance.
Afternoon diary. Just a short pop in.
Finished self isolation today. Started work from home at 3am. By 10am I was back in uniform, glad to be helping where it is needed most right now. Having a bite to eat and then it is on call overnight so I suspect I might not see a bed for a while. I wouldn’t change my job for any other in the world though.
Not a thought for gambling. Haven’t had for some time and I am very grateful for that.
Stay safe everyone xx
Today has been an all sorts day but I am very happy. I went out early to shop, my first experience post coronavirus and I was humbled with how I was treated. I am fairly emotional at the mo and I did not want to cry in the supermarket but everyone was just so lovely 😊. I am in a good place. I might even pop into chat tonight and see how it goes. I think I am better placed to handle things now or at least know when to step back.
love to all x
Evening diary, still gamble free 😊
I didn’t handle yesterday very well in the end. Maybe it’s helpful sometimes to have a reminder about things that trigger me and make me bit vulnerable. I made some poor choices, the main thing is that I don’t do the same again. I looked pretty shocking most of the day but I think I am beginning to look a little better. Drama says my sparkle is coming back and that’s good news 😊
stay safe all xx
It’s been a while...The last few days have been full on and I have kind of lost track of time, day of the week, my name (joking on that one!). I have lost the sense of routine just because work demands are so great and unpredictable. I felt a bit battle weary for the first time yesterday evening when I learnt that I would have to get up and out of the house for work at a ridiculously early hour, even early for a lark like me. I crashed out pretty early last night on the sofa which is NOT like me. That’s my hubby’s specialty 😊. At least I got some sleep in though.
Arrived home tonight to a wonderful feast of my favourite food which was awesome. It was just nice to unwind and eat a proper meal for a change.
Back on my travels in the wee small hours of the morning again so I am hoping for a few good hours sleep. To some extent I am pleased that I don’t have too much time to process things at the moment as some of it is not easy stuff at all. I know I can’t ignore it completely though because at some point I will stop and think so I just need to prepare for that. I am waffling. Time to stop 😊
150 days gamble free today. That’s a plus 😊