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Murlo
(@murlo)

Hello new diary. Starting at day 95 gamble free.

It feels strange that I missed posting on a diary for a couple of days. I have never been one to use social media, blogs or anything like that so it has surprised me that I missed writing here. Anyway. I am back. 

Early start for work today. The drive in was lovely. Just as the sun was rising and there was a sharp frost on the ground and low dense fog across the fields. I love it that I notice all of those things now. A 60 mile each way journey is no longer a pain in the a**e because it is taking away from gambling time. It is time for me to relax, listen to whatever I want on the drive and just take the world in. 

I got home at a reasonable time so went for a coffee with hubby. The place we go to is super friendly. All of the staff know us. It’s like a cafe version of a good local pub. A good place to chill out for a bit. 

It is only a few days until I reach the 100 day gamble free mark. I know that we should never say never but right know I am feeling totally confident that I will cross the line without any issues at all and ready for whatever the next milestone is that I set. Don’t know what that will be yet. 

Not much else to say really. I am in a good place, mentally well and not a thought of gambling. 

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Posted : 6th February 2020 7:55 pm
Boo radley
(@boo-radley)

Whose this new girl on the block 😍😍😍 boo and scottie boo 

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Posted : 6th February 2020 9:51 pm
russ_789
(@russ_789)

Familiar faces around me
Laughter fills the air
Your loving grace surrounds me
Everybody's here
Furniture's out on the front porch
Music's up loud
I dream of you in my arms
I lose myself in the crowd

Let it rain, let it rain, let it rain
Let it rain, let it rain, let it rain, let it rain
Meet me at Murlo's place, we're gonna have a party
Meet me at Murlo's place, we're gonna have a party
Tell me how do you live broken-hearted
Meet me at Murlo's place

I believe Bruce Springsteen was talking about you when he wrote that

Great to have you back here

Mark

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Posted : 6th February 2020 10:11 pm
Lonelysoul
(@lonelysoul)

Hi Murlo

thank you for the post on my diary and your support in chat. Amazing what a difference it can make to how you are feeling. You’re doing amazing - keep up the great work and hopefully will catch you on chat tomorrow. 

Lonelysoul

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Posted : 6th February 2020 10:26 pm
russ_789
(@russ_789)

Glad I could bring a smile to your face Murlo.

As for personality traits, I believe mine were always there, just waiting to be awakened by something, addiction, relationship breakdown, a death, who knows but I think at some stage something would have happened...no science to back that up tho...just a feeling I have...the more I reflect back the more I feel like i'm uncovering the truth about myself, that I was never truly happy and that was before the gambling...the gambling just made it worse.

Anyways, enough rambling from me!

#1pmCrewForLife

Mark

 

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Posted : 6th February 2020 11:54 pm
Murlo
(@murlo)

Morning world. Nottingham today for me so in honour of Boo I will have to have a sausage sarnie with HP sauce 😊

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Posted : 7th February 2020 6:28 am
Boo radley
(@boo-radley)

Brown bread. Buttie or bap.. You go girl... 😘😘😘

Boo 

😘

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Posted : 7th February 2020 9:10 am
Murlo
(@murlo)

Brown bap. It was gorgeous 😊

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Posted : 7th February 2020 9:11 am
DaveS1988
(@daves1988)

Hey @murlo,

It will be 1 whole year for me on the 13th Feb. Feels like a birthday I'm quite excited! 😀

Just wanted to reiterate your points about how the simple but nice things in life are now noticed and how the world is taken in, because your head is no longer filled with all the negativity caused by gambling. Another thing for me is that I now laugh at things... something I never used to do whilst actively gambling.

Life is better now! 

Congrats on the 1 year (given your confidence I will say it in advance 😉 )

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Posted : 7th February 2020 10:23 am
Murlo
(@murlo)

Morning Dave,

thank you so much for popping into my diary and I can imagine you are getting excited for your 1 year anniversary, that is awesome! It is so lovely to be able to appreciate life itself. I see things so differently now. Wishing you all the best in your ongoing recovery.

 

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Posted : 7th February 2020 10:48 am
Murlo
(@murlo)

Day 96 gamble free. 

I have finished work for the day and that means one thing, time for a weekend away with my pals, can’t wait 😊

I had a fab day today. I was at a conference. Met loads of new and inspirational people and caught up with an old boss. I loved working for her and it was wonderful to see her. It has been a while, largely because of the job she has now. We had a long hug when we saw each other which seemed to take some folk by surprise. I could hear someone mutter o*g (Murlo) has just hugged R....now I don’t just go hugging people at random and I have enough political awareness and sensitivity to know when it is right or wrong to do so. Anyway we had a bit of a laugh about it, reflecting on  the expectations placed upon people in a position of significant influence. 

So that is it really for today. Time to get the party started as they say 😊

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Posted : 7th February 2020 4:50 pm
Boo radley
(@boo-radley)

Sweet spa dreams.. 

Have a heavenly time my  lovely gamcare friend 

Nite n bless boo 😘

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Posted : 7th February 2020 9:51 pm
Murlo
(@murlo)

Night my little gem, I have had a steak pie. It was lovely 😊 

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Posted : 7th February 2020 10:37 pm
Boo radley
(@boo-radley)

Desperate Dan style.. Way to go girl.. Proud of you

Nite n bless. Boo 😘

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Posted : 7th February 2020 10:42 pm
Murlo
(@murlo)

Awesome suggestion boo, it was amazing 👍😋😘

nite n bless little gem x

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Posted : 7th February 2020 10:54 pm
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