Well today is a bit better still can’t get my head round that I have had a another stroke and still no answers thank you all for words of encouragement I will stay GF as I have worked to hard to go back I told my wife that I was feeling like I need to gamble and she hit the nail on the head when she said it was this time last year when I hit it hard and it could be the thought of Christmas and not having any money to buy her a present not that she wanted me to any way she is my rock
so why do I get the these thoughts which is why I hate myself not being a man to give her a life that she had before not that it was anything Special before I got ill I wish could just end it and make it go away sorry I am now crying god what must you all think of me sorry
The pressures of Christmas can be a trigger for most scotty , this time last year I spent all my money for months chasing Christmas presents , the Christmas presents never Come Alls I managed to do was empty my bank balance things got worse from that point on ... sorry to here you have had another stroke, but please stop beating yourself up your a good man that deserves to be happy , you have a wonderful family around you and it’s not what’s under the tree that matters it’s about the people around it , if last year taught me anything it was to be kinder to myself and don’t beat myself up ,
hope to see you soon in chat , even if I just see your name In Their you can say as much or as little as you like , all my love 😘
Good to see you in this mornings chatroom Scotty.
Health issues are a major concern for you at the moment but keep taking the tablets and enjoy your life as best you can.
Your performance in recovery has been exemplary and you have always been a great source of inspiration to me.
Take good care of yourself