Was last here back in April having just completed 5 months gamble free. I am 28 and have been gambling since I was 20, those 5 months were the longest I have managed without a bet, I only bet on football.
Since April I have tracked my gambling and have lost £600, not a lot but £200 of that has come in the last 10 days and I can feel myself getting sucked in again.
From Nov 17 -Apr 18 I kept a diary on here and updated it everyday and to me it helped a lot in me staying clear of this horrible addiction.
Before I started my diary In November I worked out I that I lost on average £2500 a year since 2014, a lot of money to me. That is equivalent to £49 a week , £7 a day and what helped last time was I added up each day what I would have spent gambling and I will do the same this time round.
I managed 5 months last time and I know it will be difficult but aiming for a year this time round.
My last bet was on Wednesday so my first entry tomorrow will be day 3
Saturdays will be my hardest day to get through at first. If only I could just stick to a £5 accumulator but that is never the way, always want more and when I win more I only lose it again.
The main problem for me is boredom, I need to come up with a new hobby to take my mind completly off gambling.
Will be hard first week or so but as I found in my first diary it does get easier, one day at a time
Day 3 : £21.00
Yesterday was tough.
Somehow watched football and the live scores without placing a bet.
I did go on a couple of sites I must admit but I self excluded on both of them rather then gamble.
There are just so many bookies online now which causes so much temptation.
I admitted to my girlfriend yesterday that i had been struggling with the urges lately and feel better now that I have told someone. She knows about my gambling and does stick by me, luckily it has never got majorly out of hand.
Will keep busy today, gym , family , anything to just keep me busy and to help me forget gambling.
Day 4 £28.00
Was quite difficult yesterday. Didnt have any plans so a lot of it thinking about gambling and ignoring the temptations. Was close to backing another goal in the Man Utd vs Spurs match at 0-2, yes it would have won but I only would have lost it eventually (I keep reminding myself of that).
Bit more of a busier day today which helps. Not missing the stress and anxiety gambling causes me one bit.
Day 6 £42.00
Yes I am now self excluded from all my bookmakers online. I still find myself going on them though and checking, just a habit that will slowly fade the longer I go gamble free.
The amount of times in the past I would ‘only’ deposit £10 and that has turned into me losing a couple hundred pounds in a few days due to chasing, its just not worth it and need to keep telling myself that I am winning the longer I dont place a bet
Good day yesterday, only checked my phone once or twice to see the latest odds, hopefully manage a day soon where I dont check at all and stick to it. I have self excluded for at least one year on all my online bookies I used.
Busy day planned today, hotel booked down London tonight, walk over the o2 in the afternoon then out for dinner. Just keep taking it day by day.
Day 8 £56.00