Diary of boo radley

Friday. 

Not too bad. Sleep pattern still interrupted but at least time in the day to restore. 

Meeting for little trot with friend today then going to local nature reserve for a stroll. Weather looks promising although at mo. Layer of frost on car.. 

Feelings of wanting to gamble are entering my head most days but I think it's a lingering desire to to blot out last few months. They don't  last long and am able to kick them in the long grass.. As I repeatedly say online doesn't tempt me so it's briefly thoughts of a card or ticket..

Anyway thats my thoughts for today. 

Bye for now 

Boo ???

Hi Boo,

You’ve been through a terrible time recently and you’ve experienced terrible loss. Gambling will not comfort this. You are a strong, driven person and you’ll get through these tough times. Better days are just around the corner.

Once upon a time, i had stopped gambling for about 4 years and I stupidly put on a small, tiny, stupid, nothing bet without knowing that the next year or year and a half of my life would become a chaotic mess. That one single bet led to near daily gambling episodes again. One stupid bet led to me losing the plot and blowing thousands in one hour of madness. 

Be kind to yourself, lean on your friends for help and support and get through this rough patch.

Im so sorry if the above sounds like a lecture but I think you are fabulous and you’ve done so well in the past year and a bit and mostly through very difficult times. 

I hope you have a fabulous weekend with sunshine and blue skies.

PS I was super impressed with your long run last week. I read it but I couldn’t reply at the time and never got back to it.

Take good care.

RR

Saturday. 

Looks like another sunny day. I haven't got much to do today and honestly am glad. 

To return to yesterday's thread about my thoughts on gambling lately. I suppose back when I gambled thats where I went to escape and although I haven't gambled since 2019 it's still not that far back so my brain and emotions are still remembering that time and still a slight voice is trying to tempt me. But I also strongly remember the pain, disappointment, fear, guilt of those times and why I am saying I'm master of my own mind now. So, no to gambling and its side affects.

Breakfast soon.. And feeling happy that February is to a close to.. Spring is in the air. Dark nights are fading.

All for now. 

Boo 

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Sunday. And glad to see February on its last day. 

OK march can be cruel weather wise but  colours  and beauty are emerging with nature. Birds chirping.  Lightness. 

I'm off to work soon so best get ready.

Stay safe all boo ?

Hello March and welcome. 

Dullish out but not to worry. 

Sleep pattern still not corrected yet. But I just have a brew and eventually drift off. Eating on the other hand on overdrive. So going back to basics doing diary for that. And am going to focus on more exercise.

No gambling. 

Off his brekkie. 

Boo ?

Tuesday. 

Feels chilly. 

Just thrown some dried fruit for the birds. It's a local walk and housework day today. 

Had a fair sleep still still broken pattern though. 

Really trying to keep focused on diet. Why is food so comforting. 

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Need to buy a hair dye to its beginning to look strawlike and lacking lustre. 

The news when it's on is both encouraging in parts but with added buts thrown in. 

Anyway brekkie and a read of TV paper to see what tonight's viewing will be. 

All for now 

Boo

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Wednesday. Hello and bit chilly but going for park stroll with friend. 

It would be lovely to stop off at Cafe afterwards but lockdown etc. Not forever now though. 

Slept a tad better last night. 

Fed the birds just and you can be assured the big pigeons steal the most. 

Had a lovely stroll yesterday and stopped by to see some local pigs and piglets rummaging in the mud. Such happy souls they are. 

Running end of week which I'm looking forward to. And several days off work soon. 

I need to de clutter wardrobe n shoes. 

Up to press no gambling. 

Stay safe all. 

Boo 

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Friday. 

Meeting friend for park run then shop then TV. Feel like I am walking and running on very tired legs lately. 

Slept quite well last night  too. 

Have down days but I suppose with mum and other stuff going on. Working for 12 months during covid will take its toll. 

Still turning a corner now.. Next week schools kick in let's hope it all goes well. 

All for now.

Boo ?

Tuesday. 

Frosty but promise of a clear day. 

Slept quite well last night and no vivid dream. 

Today out for a stroll. Some bits n pieces at home later. TV maybe. 

Going to feed wildlife soon. They soon swoop down once they see the food. I must admit they do add something to the day seeing them surviving the way they do. 

I do think good has increased in price from last few shops but no surprises there. Just hope it will level out eventually. 

All for now 

Boo ?

Hi Boo,

I hope you are well. I’m glad to see that you are keeping yourself busy with different tasks and getting out for walks/runs etc.

The nights are getting lighter but in my part of the world the rain has been horrendous and everyday seems to be a windy day. I’m getting old, I never used to moan about the weather and seasons but now I look forward to warmer times like the kids look forward to Christmas.

I’ve started watching “Your Honour” on TV. It looks good. I like finding good new shows to watch. Give it a try - you’ll like it.

Take care snd have a super fabulous weekend 

RR

Friday. 

Hello.

Feeling tired still. Had few not so good sleeps. All in all  generally well in self though. 

Work was busy yesterday.  Non stop. We were thin on the ground with staff too. Still as they say take the good days and bad. 

I've started watching a few things on the Netflix and Atlantic. One called your honour. There's plenty of choice to go at. 

I'm off got a walk later and then an after noon in with a few chores. 

We have a little field mouse visits each day.   I think the wetter weather brings them in. 

Off for brekkie now. I have been reading a few threads of others and they're all very positive. 

Stay safe snd gamble free all. 

Boo ?

Morning. Creeping towards Easter and eggs.. 

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I'm doing OK this week. Getting out n about. Weather is decent which helps. I've been watching less news and more dramas which helps. Slept better slightly also this week. 

Done a couple of runs this week and got a poetry book on the go too. People are emerging more now into daylight.

Nothing major planned for today other than a walk to shops and scenic stroll later. 

Take care all  

Boo ?

Hi boo thanks  I have not been on for a few weeks struggling  at the moment health not gambling  scotty????

Good Morning Boo,

You seem to be doing well all things considered at the moment. I think you are truly resilient.

Glad to see your getting out some runs and walks which helps during tough times.

Your poetry book would be lost on me. If there is area where my lack of intelligence could be exposed it would be with poetry ?‍♀️

RR

Morning. 

Lovely day out there. 

Walking today and bits n bobs to get. 

TV later and some healthy food for tea. 

I've got a bike now so am enjoy ing the park and cycle routes  on wheels.  Not professional but a steady pace and getting more confidence.

I do believe breakfast is calling. 

Stay safe all 

Boo ???‍♂️