how u getting on today Stephen?
Keep going Redeemer!
Best Wishes
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Thank you Adam & Admin, I appreciate your support and encouragement.
All is well with me. No money left but I have spent what I had wisely. Weekly state pension goes in bank tomorrow but that will be taken up with rent, food and a bit of this and that.
No desire to gamble whatsoever but that will probably change next Monday when my monthly works pension goes in the bank.
Mate, you're thinking about payday already and when your thoughts will change. I just want you to challenge that negative thinking. Your thoughts aren't bound to change. You are on the recovery wagon with the rest of us.
Don't make next Monday a thing already because it will become a thing. I know this because I've done it.
Um, I feel like I'm being bossy. Sorry. I just want you to do well and be happy.
Love from Drama x
Thank you Drama. You have hit the nail on the head with your post. It does seems like I set myself up for a fall because I have given in on several occasions when getting paid at the end of month.
At the moment I have a little money but no desire to gamble.
Today I got together again with the 'Charity Variety Show' and because they were happy with my contribution last week, they let me do a performance again today. It went well and the audience applauded which made me feel quite chuffed. It involved a poem/story which I had written about 2 dancers and the sound engineer played some music I had chosen to accompany me and an inflatable doll dancing a Tango followed by a Salsa and than a Foxtrot. Several people told me afterwards that it was really funny and my dancing was good so tonight I am feeling on top of the world.
Well done Stephen sounds brilliant !!
Thankyou for visiting my diary Adam. Your support is very much appreciated.
Hello Diary.
Two weeks gamble free and it's as clear as one two three
That keeping out of betting shops is the way it has to be
There sure is an attraction but I know without a doubt
That giving money to daft machines leaves me alone with nowt
I have had a wonderful weekend.
It has been the 'BBC Strong Language Poetry and Performance weekend in Hull with plenty of great performances by singers, dancers, actors/actresses and poets.
It has been truly magical. Amazing talent and to top it all, most of the performances were free.
Redeemer x
You okay buddy?
Thank you Drama.
Yes all good with me, been out and about having fun and catching up on a few things.
I have neglected the diaries yesterday and today but will post on your diary tomorrow.
Stephen x
No more will I self destruct or act the crazy fool
Keeping out the betting shops is now my golden rule
Thoughts of cash or lack of it simply will not do
So skipping along the gamble free road and smiling the whole day through
Bit early to be up and about but a late night reveller decided to start singing as he passed near my home.
I doubt if he will be feeling so bright and breezy in a few hours time.
Drunk as a s***k and happy as Larry or maybe that's not so
In a few hours time when the sun comes up he might be feeling low
Angry words from loved ones and a wallet without cash
Reminders of the night before when feeling rather flash
I have in the past found myself in a similar position on a number of occasions so it would be hypocritical for me to judge the young man harshly.
However I did voice an opinion about his loud voice and also questioned the marital status of his parents.
So here I sit with a mug of coffee, in the early hours of Saturday morning, looking forward to a gamble free weekend enjoying a few laughs and doing a bit of this and that.
Will the rest of my life be an adventure? Well I suppose that is up to me!
Wishing fellow travellers peace, happiness and contentment on their journey to a more meaningful life.
Redeemer x
1-30 early on a Sunday morning and all is well in my world.
Strange really but I have never gambled online and never really felt any urge to do so. However, I did sign up a few months ago to Gamstop just to be on the safe side. I think that was probably a very wise thing to do.
I was in the city centre Saturday and passed a couple of the betting shops which closed down a few weeks ago. A part of me said good riddance but a part of me felt a little melancholy. My mind briefly wandered back to the occasional small wins but than I recalled the devastating losses. It is difficult to accept the fact that the money lost has gone forever and a part of me still struggles with that.
But gamble free is how I be and that is the way I will stay.
Staying out of betting shops each and every day
Twelve days from now my birthday and I will be sixty nine
My options now are limited but they are mine - all mine
Just after noon on the 6th of October
Don't smoke - Don't gamble - Always sober
What is the reason I'm sat here on earth
For my life seems quite pointless and lacking in worth
Sixty nine approaches as I look back on my life with shame
But I will draw on all my strength and continue with the game
Stephen The Redeemer is no quitter so let's Rock n Roll
You're a fabulous poet. You should do a blog. I love how you come up with witty rhymes.
It's okay to look back, but don't stare! 69 years is a long time, you'll be all day looking back. Anyway, you look forward to today and enjoy it.
Take care pal.
Drama x
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