So I'm back reading the forums, recently had a little dip and in 3 weeks gambled a couple of £100. Nothing major but it's set me back from my targets. I often feel like what I've lost if nothing compared to some people on here, but we all have the same struggle no matter the amount, everyone is different, everyone's financial position is different, the way everyone deals with gambling is different, the way people react is different. But we are all on the same journey, personally I can never sit here and say I will never gamble again, personally I feel that's putting too much pressure on myself to not to do, which in turn triggers me to do it again.. so all I do is each day try not to.
This year I've really got into fitness and mindset so surrounded myself with exactly that, it's made me realise I haven't surrounded myself with like minded people when it comes to gambling or recovering from the addiction.
All the best to everyone out there doing things the way they feel best for them ?
Hi
A good and sensible and mature way of looking at your onward path. We can not afford to be stereotypes right now.
I wish you well!
Best
C
Well done on the fitness I am just getting back into being active again and going for walks myself. I have taken the same road as yourself but very mindful of my own mind and feeling towards gambling and the implications of a potential massive disaster it can be if I was to start again. Currently I am on day 150 of my recovery from my last bet but I know I am a moment away from my next.
last night I had a chemical reaction to a video I watched in which set off my gambling euphoria of I could win X amount and it shot from my brain to my gut to my brain again and I took a moment to read what my mind and body were experiencing… it was again the ecstasy of gambling again without placing a bet. Because I took these moments to observe my feelings and thoughts it helped me take a step back and then steer my journey away from it and I focused on a game instead and went to sleep.
of course this is no single answer to the problem but I think I might be able to reach that edge of compulsion and divert my actions well away from it. It of course was a hit of dopamine and I enjoyed that moment if I can continue to do this and do something I enjoy in that moment I might be able to control the compulsion much better down the road. I will do my best not to go over that edge as one bet away and it’s complete disaster.
I guess this is me doing my own thing working out my own journey and placing emotional, physical and mental barriers in the way so I can get on with my bloody life.
take care.
dave101
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