It seems however much you tell yourself you're not going to gamble again, you're always sucked back in to this evil game.
I have had strong points and weak points but even now I feel drawn to go back to the casino again.. it is a funny though, that when you play games like roulette or blackjack, 'theoretically' the player has around 48% chance of winning, however, in the last 10 visits, I walked out with nothing despite the odds saying I should have walked out ahead at least 4 of those times.
I ask myself why I keep doing it, there's always the thought that you could win something back. But deep down, I have already counted it as a loss before I even walk in, yet I still walk in.. almost knowing that I am going to lose. I do find enjoyment from it (while I am there), and the adrenaline and fun it creates, however, it seems to never be possible to leave, until everything is gone, and I guess this is the reason we should not start in the first place.
5 Days gamble-free, I have made a plan and I really feel like I am going to stick to it this time. This is not just the comments from someone who has lost it all and will be changed again after pay day hits the bank account (I still have money in the bank that I could access) but right now I am choosing, not to gamble it.
I hope this 5 days turns into 10 days, which turns into 2 weeks into 2 months. I need to get out of this cycle and I know that the beginning is the hardest part. I look forward to sharing my journey with you and I hope this gives me at least some form of accountability to not do it again.
It seems however much you tell yourself you're not going to gamble again, you're always sucked back in to this evil game.
I have had strong points and weak points but even now I feel drawn to go back to the casino again.. it is a funny though, that when you play games like roulette or blackjack, 'theoretically' the player has around 48% chance of winning, however, in the last 10 visits, I walked out with nothing despite the odds saying I should have walked out ahead at least 4 of those times.
I ask myself why I keep doing it, there's always the thought that you could win something back. But deep down, I have already counted it as a loss before I even walk in, yet I still walk in.. almost knowing that I am going to lose. I do find enjoyment from it (while I am there), and the adrenaline and fun it creates, however, it seems to never be possible to leave, until everything is gone, and I guess this is the reason we should not start in the first place.
5 Days gamble-free, I have made a plan and I really feel like I am going to stick to it this time. This is not just the comments from someone who has lost it all and will be changed again after pay day hits the bank account (I still have money in the bank that I could access) but right now I am choosing, not to gamble it.
I hope this 5 days turns into 10 days, which turns into 2 weeks into 2 months. I need to get out of this cycle and I know that the beginning is the hardest part. I look forward to sharing my journey with you and I hope this gives me at least some form of accountability to not do it again.
Hi Micheal, I wish you every success with your recovery. I hope your plan involves excluding yourself from your casinos of choice, registering with Gamstop for the maximum 5 years and putting blocks in place to limit your access to gambling. If it does you’ve made a great start?
Thank you.
I am still young and I know it is possible. I have a good career and I wish to have a family one day, and I know that I can't have this lurking over me if I want to achieve those goals, so here it goes!
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