Never thought I’d be here

Dear sg103066

I am sorry to read that you are feeling the way you are.  Please do not be alone with this and if you haven't done so already please do contact one of our Advisors on our free HelpLine 0808 8020 133, or by using the Live Chat feature on our website.   We are here to support and advise you.

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Forum Admin 

Hi sg :)) 

I'm sorry to hear your story and how much pain this has caused and where you feel that the only way out is the ultimate sacrifice . 

The reason I'm responding is that it was the very same thoughts that brought me to this wonderful place nearly 4yrs ago , in fact I'd got to the point of googling how to do it , which is testament just how bad those feelings get . 

One of the first and most important pieces of information that was gifted to me on this forum was that              " Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem " very true word's indeed as everything that your going through or have already gone through is " Temporary " and please take it from  someone who's walked in your shoes that thing's can and will improve very quickly once you make the decision to stop gambling and seek the help you need . 

You've already taken such a huge step by coming on here and admitting that you have a problem( I know how that feels) but I really hope yo can find the strength to reach out to at least one family member or a close friend so that you can lighten your burden . 

Giving up gambling is difficult enough but trying to do it without the support of someone close is far more difficult . 

I remember sitting with my partner and having that conversation which most on here have had to do , sitting and explaining what I'd done and how much I'd lost was tough enough but I think the lying I'd also done hurt her more than anything , I didn't know and nor does anyone know how they will react to what your telling them but honesty is always the way forward when dealing with addiction simply because addiction loves secrecy and all the time it's just you who knows then it can drag you back in anytime it wants . 

I know you'll struggle this month but in the long term if you don't stop things will get far worse , the money can be re earn't over time and replaced and as I said if you get some gamble free time behind you your savings will certainly increase .

I'm not sure what your gambling on but there's many ways you can stop yourself getting on sites , casinos or betting shops by using self exclusions or blocking software ?. So just ask if you need help or there's much information on this site .

As admin have suggested maybe give them a call , it's free and confidential but it's what they do and what it's there for :)) .

Were all the same as you on here SG , there's no judgement it's just a whole load of people with gambling problems brought together because we don't want that life anymore , you don't have to be a slave to addiction anymore , take it from someone who's been here a while that life without the stresses gambling bring's if a far better life :)) .

Talk to you soon but please talk to someone  :))  x

Alan     

Hi SG

My story is exactly the same, spent all of my money weekly within 2 hours of it going in, having good wins that would of sorted me out financially for a bit. However the CG takes over and we try win more, when we lose we use other funds as we are convinced we can win it back, even if it's what we started with. I felt like you when I had a major loss, however then I thought the only reason I have nothing apart from anxiety and sleepless nights is my gambling. I relapsed and felt exactly the same and thought I can't do this anymore. I joined here (great support) and gamstop which has helped, if youre excluded you can't play. I'm very early days and it will take years to get straight. I can't even spin a pound as I know that would end up in major losses. It's hard, real hard but with support and honesty it can be done as many people on here have proven

No one can help you financially, like me that was a good thing, if they did I'd still gamble it and feel worse after

Get help, it's out there and I can promise you will feel better talking to someone

Good luck, we're all here for the same reason and to support each other

Xx

Hi

In my recovery I understood that I could not trust myself with money.

I gave up all of finances to my wife and I did feel like I was treated like a naughty child.

Yet I was given a certain amount each day and that helped me value money and value myself while being in the recovery program.

The money was only fuel for my addiction.

Yet just because I did not have money I did use to escape in other ways.

I do not need to escape in my fears as I use to do.

The recovery program will help you help your self to become a much healthier person.

Love and peace to every one

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham