Hi,my name is Jay.I'm from Africa(Zambia to be specific).I am a gambling addict.I first got introduced to gambling in 2019 by a friend of mine.It was harmless in the beginning and it made me feel excited everytime i won something.I kept on betting until it became a habit.What started as a hobby developed into a dark path that would leave me feeling inferior,obsolete and a failure.What is funny is i thought i had it under control but the urge of thinking i can win with last bet kept on pushing me further away from my recovery.I will be sharing more information with you as i embark on this journey.The reason why i decided to join GamCare is there are no formal institutions or groups like this one in my country which makes it difficult to get the neccesary help that one needs.Im so excited to start this journey.
P.S Jay
Day 2
Thinking about how much i have lost feels like a knife piercing through my heart.I keep rewinding all the moments before i made such fatal errors.In addition to feeling this way,i know that money could have been so much helpful to my family.The lies i told just so i could make excuses about why i wasnt showing up when i was supposed to makes me feel guilty all the time.I just want to be in bed the whole day and the thought of going for work hurts me a lot.However,i find comfort and a little bit of relief knowing my situation is not permanent.Its temporary and the reason why i am so comfortable is the fact that its still up to me to control my urges.
Hi Jay... Yes its awful isn't it, when we gamble are money away and how it makes us feel. Like you say, lying in bed is like a refuge away from the carnage we can cause.
The longer we don't gamble the better we feel about ourselves. Fill your time with other things, healthy things. Onwards and upwards.
All the best
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