Hi all my name is Lee and today I signed up to this forum aswell as taking the first steps to getting some counseling, tomorrow I ring the place that bares you from all bookies and then I'm going to Age UK to sign up to volunteer to keep me busy as I work 4 on 4 off. I have lost £*** this week and can't take it anymore, I have been close to trying to take my life because of it this year and that scared me. I have a lovely wife, 2 amazing young children, a good job and some good friends.... The only thing I struggle with in is this gambling addiction and I'm scared I will lose everything I have built because of it. I don't think my wife can take much more and I put too much pressure on her to control all our finances etc.