I never ever thought I’d find myself in this situation, I’ve blown thousands in the last 18 months, I went through a traumatic incident in dec 19 before that I had a pretty normal steady ) a little boring) life. I’ve tried blocking my bank cards found a way around that so I used gamstop which was great for about a week until I found a way round that , I just can’t seem to stop myself , I’ve blown my rent and bounced bills so I’m now being evicted and have huge debts, I feel like I’ve let my family down and I absolutely hate myself yet I can’t stop, I sit here crying night after night and I’ve just used my last tenner on the slots, I hate myself for being so weak and feel I’d be better off dead than carry on like this. My mental Heath is in bits and I feel like I’m losing my mind.
Dear Kr1sty41,
Welcome to the GamCare forum. Understandably you're really down on yourself at the moment. So it's even more important that you've taken the step to share your story here, because here you'll receive support from people who have been where you are.
It's worrying that recently you feel like your loved ones would be better off without you. I know you are feeling pretty hopeless at the moment and struggling to see a way forward. There is hope and you are not alone in this.
You can also talk to the Samaritans on 116 123, and if you feel at immediate risk, you can call 999 or go to A&E. Your GP can also provide treatment if necessary, and connect you into local mental health services.
If you use this link you will find services that can offer you advice on your debt and how to start addressing it https://www.gamcare.org.uk/self-help/money-management/
If you haven’t already done so, can I recommend you give one of our Advisers a call on either our HelpLine on 0808 8020 133 or our NetLine, they will be able to talk you through all the support that is available to help you on your road to recovery.
I wish you all the best,
John
Forum Admin
Hi
i can relate to this so much right now, i too am feeling very very low after having a set back this weekend and blowing my whole wage, cant bring myself to tell my partner, dont know what to do, cant stop myself either, anyway the point of me reaching out was because for me it sort of made me feel im not the only one who feels that exact same way, if youd like to chat let me know, hope you have a good day
WB
have done the same as you. I am tech savy and can find ways around the blocks. The best thing i have found "Only been here one day" Is to stop all social media. Since most of it promotes betting. Which triggered mine. Wish you all the best.
Most of us on here can relate, I’m now 6 months free, this is what I did, I have a natwest account and I cancelled my debit card and said I didn’t want another, I told natwest about my addiction but they never blocked transactions to the awful non Gamstop demon sites. I’ve now opened a monzo account and they have been amazing, I can’t gamble at all. Please register on Gamstop, Kr1sty41 and speak to monzo. In 6 months I’ve stopped my addiction to gambling, opiates and cannabis and I was dumped by my partner of 6 yrs, I was broken in October last year, (frankly life could not of been any worse for me) I got an amazing counsellor via these guys on here and my life has been turned around. My addiction will never leave me but I can now control my urges, yes I have bad days but I now can deal with them a lot better. I have such an addictive personality and never thought I’d stop, I was gambling for years also. Please have self belief and whatever route you take I really know if I can do this then there is hope for everyone. You really can do this, you’ll have the odd wobble but these last six months have flown by for me, be strong and never think that your family would be better off without you as they simply won’t, your in my thoughts and prayers and don’t think your alone because your not! Xxx
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