I guess I just wanted to write this down really as I'm still kicking myself with how stupid I've been.
For several years I've had a terrible gambling problem, racked up thousands of pounds of debt and lost my relationship bexwof it. After this, I went a whole year without a single penny spent on any form of gambling and signed up to gamstop. My life was getting back on track and felt great.
Couple of months ago, I had a slip up as a family member wanted to gamble and I thought I had cracked it. This opened up the addiction again and I've gambled several times, each time saying it's the last.
I've lost so much and can't believe why I've done this again all in the hope of winning it back. I went a whole year! And feels like it's just been wasted. I've now got more debt behind me now, no money for the month and feel completely empty. I'm going to hand over financal control to a family member tomorrow so I won't have any money to gamble. I'm hoping this works this time.
Thank you both. Well hopefully I can go longer than a year this time, no slip ups.
I've organised a family member to have all my wages and then give me the minimum to live on so that should definitely help as I won't have money to gamble. Also been to my first gamblers anonymous meeting tonight and have left feeling positive about the future for the first time in a long time.