1st Day

Hi morgan

i am just 5 days in so new here myself.  I have been reading posts.  I join the group chats in the evening and chat or just listen.  Everyone on here is different but with one common issue.  I am inspired by those gf for so long.  Proud of people tempted but resisted and sympathize with anyone who has had a relapse.

there is no judgment just good advice and honesty.

what form of gambling do you struggle with? 

Hi

Once I put a lot of time and effort in to my recovery and handed over all of my finances and started to abstain my recovery was going to become much easier.

The money was just the fuel for my addiction.

I did not respect myself and I did not respect money.

I was unable to show appreciation and gratitude sincerely.

Each time I went back to my addictions I needed to understand what was my last emotional trigger was.

The recovery program helped me understand that I was like a rat in a wheel going faster and faster getting no where healthy.

I am a non religious person and have been able to find a healthy spiritual life with out being religious.

Every action has consequences, every healthy action has healthy consequences, every unhealthy action has unhealthy consequences.

The recovery program works for any one who is fully committed towards healthy living.

The recovery program helped me understand that abstaining from unhealthy habits was not a fight but in fact a complete surrender, the person I was fighting was myself, the person I feared facing the most was myself.

Only once I surrender completely and live one day at a time, just for today I will not gamble. It is a boundary I set for myself to no longer live in fear and escape.

I found out that time off my addictions did not mean that my inner child was healed.

The recovery program works like mountain climbers tied together with ropes who find safe and secure ways of learning and finding new skills in living a healthier life today.

Why do I stick with recovery because I am the beneficiary and my family are in living a healthy secure life.

Before my recovery I could not admit to myself I had huge fears of emotional intimacy.

Before my recovery I could not admit to myself I was emotionally vulnerable.

Before my recovery I could not be honest and accountable to myself.

I was able to abstain from my addiction yet was not fully committed towards my recovery.

For me to abstain only and do nothing else than just go to work was white knuckling my recovery.

The recovery program helped me understand that I was like a rat in a wheel going faster and faster getting no where healthy.

I am a non religious person and have been able to find a healthy spiritual life with out being religious.

Every action has consequences, every healthy action has healthy consequences, every unhealthy action has unhealthy consequences.

The recovery program works for any one who is fully committed towards healthy living.

Please keep going to meetings, you will benefit from it in so many ways.

Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham