# | Post Title | Result Info | Date | User | Forum |
My addictive voice is a faint | 76 Relevance | 16 years ago | ricks | Recovery Diaries | |
My addictive voice is a faint echo of what it used to be. The beast is determined but i have made a plan, a life plan and i am more determined than The beast. To be aware of how my beast will act puts me in control. its been 4 months since i decided not to gamble or smoke and stop all other addictive behaviours. Since Then i have been generally happy and only a few times have i felt The lows of The beast trying to get me to gamble. When i work away i stay with a CG. I got home from work after 8 am this morning and he was watching The Morning Line. Now ... | |||||
The bear of the gambling | 42 Relevance | 8 years ago | Anonymous | Recovery Diaries | |
The bear of The gambling beast tore at every limb of my body. Playing dead to The beast as he was distracted by taking more of my soul and hard earned cash, I played dead and silently prepared myself for The final assault. I had too much inside me to let this beast win. He came in for his final charge but was unaware of attack being The best form of defence and attack I did..... I layed There with The dead beast of The FOBT bear on top of me and reached out for The cyber gamcare, to help and revive this ravished body. and help came in abundance. Yet The ... | |||||
The Intelligent Man Verses The Beast | 40 Relevance | 8 years ago | tryinghard1234 | New Members Intros Forum | |
... in a mediocre state and compared to some on here I would be seen to not have a problem I pay my bills I live, and Then I gamble all my money away. I am sick and tired of not being able to use The money I earn to move forward, I know and am aware that I have someting inside me that wants to blow my life up, yet I still talk myself into bad decisions that cost. I am a sports fans have been since I was 10 love every sport going played to a good level most of my childhood and until work restricted it when i was in my 20's. I was introduced to betting at th ... | |||||
Hi missykat | 38 Relevance | 9 years ago | Anonymous | Family & Friends | |
Hi missykat Im sure your son loves his children very much and to us its hard to understand why as you say he isnt doing more to try and see Them, Id like to bet he doesnt understand it as well. Gamblers are The most selfish peole you will ever meet, its all about The next bet and nothing and no one else comes close to that, very hard to hear but its true. Ive come to accept this, hate it and its hurts like hell but its just The way it is for a gambler. Im disabled and have mobility problems and one day Id fallen over, unhurt but give myself quite a fright ... | |||||
RE: Day 1 - it’s all uphill from here | 38 Relevance | 3 years ago | azzabazza | Overcoming Gambling Harms | |
Day 1 is The hardest step of Them all - and Then simply taking it day by day is The next focus. I read you saying “take this beast down for good” which I know that needed feeling myself - however I have grown to learn that I need to imagine “the beast” that is gambling needs to be beaten everyday. and when you wake up The next morning, The beast still exists but maybe less powerful than previous but The goal remains The same in beating The beast for that day. Most importantly you are here, we are all here for you | |||||
I hope this remains at the | 37 Relevance | 6 years ago | adam123 | New Members Intros Forum | |
I hope this remains at The top of The threads for newbies to read, a sobering thought ​ | |||||
That little beast will always | 36 Relevance | 6 years ago | xangel11x | Recovery Diaries | |
Hey Stephen, There's no doubt that little beast will always be There at every oppurtunity, forever sitting in our unconcious mind. You have shown that you can beat it before and you can and I believe you will do it again, that beast is just getting angry now because it wants that control back, it is lonely and needs to get back into your life to ensure you every heartache, pain and suffering that gambling can bring, I believe it thrives on that. it's your life not The beasts and however many times you need to start over, so be it. You are and ha ... | |||||
RE: My journey.. | 32 Relevance | 2 years ago | captain46 | Recovery Diaries | |
Hi Tizzy What a carry on with your Dad - no wonder your confidence in The medics has gone downhill - lets hope you get some clarity tomorrow. I agree that gambling dictates our moods, I was a much better person before my bad life decisions and my downhill path into addiction. and when going through winning spells I could achieve more both for myself and others, when losing heavily I'd just want to shut myself away and no-one would really want my company when I was like that anyway. its The urges that were (and remain) hellish. Think its worth listing Them ... | |||||
Another day, another day of | 32 Relevance | 14 years ago | captain46 | Recovery Diaries | |
Another day, another day of random gambling. Incredible how easily you can just slip back into The habit of it after 4 months away. After 5 days straight random gambling, feels like I've never been away. Back to gambling silly amounts on stupid cartoon races. The beast inside me remains hungry and I'm feeding it. | |||||
Hi | 31 Relevance | 8 years ago | Anonymous | Family & Friends | |
Hi Im The mum of a compulsive gambler. My son's debts are very much like your husbands, we helped out several times,he created more and eventually went to Step change. I made The mistake of helping sort his debt management plan, (dont ever do that thay need to do it as part of recovery) anyway like your husband he failed to make The payments on it. Step Change tried hard to get him back on plan but he never did, so dont let him tell you They wouln't help him. My son doesnt live with us any more we got to breaking point and couldnt take another day ... | |||||
Day 3 | 31 Relevance | 5 years ago | Hullbo | Recovery Diaries | |
Day 3 for me today, feeling more positive about life. A short history of me...have suffered relapse after relapse. Gambling started for me in 2010 when I split up with an ex who I owned a house with, The stress and maybe feelings of failure lured me to The beast to escape. Financial stresses at The time Then drove The loss chasing until I amassed some huge debts, finally driving me to open up to my family. Kept in track for a few years Then had a huge relapse when I split up with my daughter's mum, The turmoil of not seeing my daughter daily drove The be ... | |||||
Hey Duncs ...Im hungry | 30 Relevance | 11 years ago | Anonymous | Recovery Diaries | |
Hey Duncs ...Im hungry already reading your post ...! Wish I could have sat at your sons bday bash ...wow 19 ...I remember it well ..lol As RE says keep writing your new script and making new memories Just put my wheelie bin out...noticed it was bulging a bit more than usual ...lol keeping on keeping on and feeling he community spirit on The forum R and D xx | |||||
Hi SA. You got me hungry with | 30 Relevance | 16 years ago | Former User | Recovery Diaries | |
Hi SA. You got me hungry with all that talk of cheese and crackers! How can anyone be dissapointed in you? You are 154 days gamble free. Big pat on The back. We all have down days, I've had a few recently. Perhaps we put ourselves under too much pressure, to cope, to perform or to please others. Have you thought of joining some evening/day classes, if you chose carefully you may find companionship/friendship and maybe someone to make you smile. Chin up. Ostrich ps thank you for your comments, The idea of me being a rebel tickles! But you know what, I'm gon ... | |||||
For years gone hungry at work | 30 Relevance | 9 years ago | Anonymous | New Members Intros Forum | |
For years gone hungry at work rather than spend couple quid on sarnie but think nothing of blowing £200 at lunchtime need to change my thinking and be kind to myself we all do.. Keep it up its really encouraging to read your posts | |||||
Mmm you are making me hungry! | 30 Relevance | 11 years ago | pinksparkle | Recovery Diaries | |
Mmm you are making me hungry! I can just smell that lemon drizzle cake, yum! 28 weeks is a fantastic achievement, well done. Hope you have a fab weekend, I am sure it will be full of fun and mischief! xxx |
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