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Magnetism

Member since:
15.12.2017

Magnetism's profile

To help myself through recovery and hopefully share my story.

I haven't gambled for

144

days

Date Post
16-11-2018 Glad to see the government back track on themselves and reduce the max bet on FOBT's to £2 in April…
15-11-2018 Thank you SJW, Well the past two nights I have had dreams about gambling on fruit machines? The drea…
12-11-2018 140 days. Still, it is a mountian climb...Although I feel that  during abstinence things stay the s…
08-11-2018 Its strange when I look back at a post...Yesterday for instance, I cannot actually remember what was…
07-11-2018 135. People can sometimes make you feel unhappy or maybe their unhappiness can make you miserable. I…
06-11-2018 134. According to Dr's and psychiatrist's. DSM etc...Like asthma or diabetes, there’s no permanent…
05-11-2018 133 days. Gambling is now being viewed by the government as a gambling related harm and seen as a  …
03-11-2018 Thanks, I appreciate it! …
01-11-2018 129. An amazing acheivement. …
31-10-2018 Today is better. 128 days gamble free. …
30-10-2018 127. I feel awful then okayish...I am hopeful that I will get completely better one day. Don't gambl…
29-10-2018 126. Monday and it seems that I'm back to sqaure 1. Although I havn't gambled for 126 days.   …
28-10-2018 125. I did something good with some money yesterday. It makes me feel good. I read somewhere that OC…
27-10-2018 Tiredness seems to put you back a bit ... However, each day that passes you get more and more resili…
25-10-2018 Meditation and coq10 seems to be turning my life around... Starting to feel much, much better.. …
24-10-2018 121. I am in a much better place than not so long ago, that's all that matters. …
22-10-2018 Giving is receiving... The dream that I have recurring is weird... I play a machine with my son and …
21-10-2018 I think about the numerous times I lost everything and the feeling of being broke doesn't just effec…
20-10-2018 Well I have been having lots of dreams about gambling lately and I know my brain is trying to proces…
14-10-2018 Thanks Christer 1. I have had a well deserved weekend. Treated myself to a trim. I still suffer with…
14-10-2018 I edited the last post of mine because I am posting my diary on your wall lol...So I apologise! Anyw…
13-10-2018 Hi, Sorry m8t I think Iv been accidently posting my thread on ya wall lol... …
12-10-2018 I popped my head into the window of a bookies today and was curious as to whether they lowered the m…
11-10-2018 well this morning I woke up early for work because an explosion happened in my dream and woke me up.…
10-10-2018 Had a dream last night I hit a big feature in a huge slot machine...I was tempted to hit the gamble …
08-10-2018 If I only spent £1 for everyday I have not gambled I would have been down £105. I couldn't imagine…
07-10-2018 I have read your diary and I too have relapsed so many times over the years. I managed to stop for t…
07-10-2018 The only problem is the system is run by con artists. The way I look at it is the money is created b…
06-10-2018 Compulsive gambling is an emotional problem. I too have lost large amounts of money...Over...and ove…
06-10-2018 Thanks for support. Yes, I will be on here... Yesterday I spoke about my gambling to a relative and …
05-10-2018 102 days. I made it! My account has been locked and I managed to steer clear of gambling... …
16-09-2018 83 days. Such progress, but still have the mind of a gambler? …
15-09-2018 82 days. Resting today. …
14-09-2018 81. Friday. …
13-09-2018 80. Eighty days around the world but still the same old me... …
12-09-2018 79. I passed a bookies today and made a joke about betting...Something was tempting my brain to fit …
11-09-2018 78. I wonder whether other people at work have demons in their closet and that is what haunted me wh…
10-09-2018 77. Back to work and today was not easy. However, I wont fall into old ways, regardless of my health…
09-09-2018 76 I am doing the right thing. I went for a 50 minute jog at 6am. Felt jittery this morning. I know …
08-09-2018 75. Life twists and turns. Looking back over my diary and realising the ups nd down... Emotional, ve…
07-09-2018 74 days without gambling. I'm back to living. …
05-09-2018 72 Days. I realise that the best way to relax is to just...Unwind and be calm. …
04-09-2018 71 Days. Seventy One days away from hell. It was HELL! I have been there and back...It took a long t…
03-09-2018 70. Well I would love to say life is great- but I would be lying. It is how I feel at the time of th…
02-09-2018 69 days. Had a good long sleep..Now having a King's breakfast. …
01-09-2018 68 days. Feel like the anxiety isnt anxiety, its somehow turned into a good feeling. Sun is shining,…
31-08-2018 67 days. Friday. Rest... …
30-08-2018 66 days. Funny how emotions are very strong at times. Life is strange; I see people on different  e…
29-08-2018 65 Days. One more step in the right direction. …
27-08-2018 63 days. Feeling a lot better and not dreaming about gambling at all. …

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15-12-2017 Stepping into tomorrow