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Magnetism

Member since:
15.12.2017

Magnetism's profile

To help myself through recovery and hopefully share my story.

I haven't gambled for

239

days

Date Post
16-02-2019 236. I am recovering and feel well... After 236 days I am starting to get back to myself again. …
15-02-2019 A woman was physically abused by her dad for years. She had terrible mental health issues later on i…
10-02-2019 When I talk about running away from problems; I mean using gambling as a crutch to feel comfortable …
10-02-2019 230 days. It's very early days in my recovery...In fact, it's 230 days since I last gambled but that…
07-02-2019 Hi NT, Thanks for the support...I actually was just looking at your diary. I have been working so mu…
06-02-2019 226.. Just realised that I haven't gambled for 226 days... …
05-02-2019 225. Still going strong …
02-02-2019 Three sitting ducks, 222 days and I have felt this uplifting of my depression...3 weeks of Cognitive…
01-02-2019 Thanks Duncs, It is difficult to explain emotions on paper. I am inspired by people like you that ha…
31-01-2019 Hi Duncs, Looking back over my diary and seeing your post there made me think about where I was ment…
29-01-2019 218 days. I am over the worst part of my addiction. However, that 1st bet is the game changer...I re…
27-01-2019 216 Days. Back from work with those negative thoughts again. I think looking at money is weird. You …
23-01-2019 212.. Making progress day by day. …
20-01-2019 Hi Karen, I used to see myself as a bit of an educated person- whatever that actually means, I do no…
17-01-2019 206. Still no gambling. …
12-01-2019 205 days. Started my 1st CBT session and realise that there are a few issues that are unresolved in …
12-01-2019 Thanks Anon. It hasn't been easy...But I must say to everyone who is addicted to electronic forms of…
07-01-2019 196 days …
03-01-2019 192 days. The battle is a struggle because money doesnt go far. Some very evil people in power don't…
01-01-2019 190. Happy new year. Sometimes I get lonely and feel I cannot talk to my family because they wouldn'…
28-12-2018 186. Dreams about machines taking monopoly money is a reccurent dream for me... …
25-12-2018 183. Probs the  first Chistmas in a long time that I never wasted my money... …
19-12-2018 177 Christmas is about giving... Firstly,Give yourself time to think and heal... Lately, If I have c…
16-12-2018 174.. This time last year I was in a terrible way. For many years, I always had a rubbish Christmas …
13-12-2018 Thanks SJW, 171 days and things are looking a lot better. Pity about the cold weather. …
02-12-2018 160. 160 days for me is a big WIN! And i'm going to keep on winning whilst I DO NOT place bets. …
28-11-2018 156. The anxiety is still very real. All the thoughts were born in my mind and somehow they gained c…
27-11-2018 155 Days. Thank you S.A I played a non money game of poker today with my nephew and can see why gamb…
21-11-2018 149. I guess that my brain is still impulsive and trying to stop that is probably impossible? On a p…
19-11-2018 147 days. …
17-11-2018 The days seem to be getting more manageable... Like I said before and I'll say it again...It is just…
16-11-2018 Glad to see the government back track on themselves and reduce the max bet on FOBT's to £2 in April…
15-11-2018 Thank you SJW, Well the past two nights I have had dreams about gambling on fruit machines? The drea…
12-11-2018 140 days. Still, it is a mountian climb...Although I feel that  during abstinence things stay the s…
08-11-2018 Its strange when I look back at a post...Yesterday for instance, I cannot actually remember what was…
07-11-2018 135. People can sometimes make you feel unhappy or maybe their unhappiness can make you miserable. I…
06-11-2018 134. According to Dr's and psychiatrist's. DSM etc...Like asthma or diabetes, there’s no permanent…
05-11-2018 133 days. Gambling is now being viewed by the government as a gambling related harm and seen as a  …
03-11-2018 Thanks, I appreciate it! …
01-11-2018 129. An amazing acheivement. …
31-10-2018 Today is better. 128 days gamble free. …
30-10-2018 127. I feel awful then okayish...I am hopeful that I will get completely better one day. Don't gambl…
29-10-2018 126. Monday and it seems that I'm back to sqaure 1. Although I havn't gambled for 126 days.   …
28-10-2018 125. I did something good with some money yesterday. It makes me feel good. I read somewhere that OC…
27-10-2018 Tiredness seems to put you back a bit ... However, each day that passes you get more and more resili…
25-10-2018 Meditation and coq10 seems to be turning my life around... Starting to feel much, much better.. …
24-10-2018 121. I am in a much better place than not so long ago, that's all that matters. …
22-10-2018 Giving is receiving... The dream that I have recurring is weird... I play a machine with my son and …
21-10-2018 I think about the numerous times I lost everything and the feeling of being broke doesn't just effec…
20-10-2018 Well I have been having lots of dreams about gambling lately and I know my brain is trying to proces…

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15-12-2017 Stepping into tomorrow