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Magnetism

Member since:
15.12.2017

Magnetism's profile

To help myself through recovery and hopefully share my story.

I haven't gambled for

92

days

Date Post
16-09-2018 83 days. Such progress, but still have the mind of a gambler? …
15-09-2018 82 days. Resting today. …
14-09-2018 81. Friday. …
13-09-2018 80. Eighty days around the world but still the same old me... …
12-09-2018 79. I passed a bookies today and made a joke about betting...Something was tempting my brain to fit …
11-09-2018 78. I wonder whether other people at work have demons in their closet and that is what haunted me wh…
10-09-2018 77. Back to work and today was not easy. However, I wont fall into old ways, regardless of my health…
09-09-2018 76 I am doing the right thing. I went for a 50 minute jog at 6am. Felt jittery this morning. I know …
08-09-2018 75. Life twists and turns. Looking back over my diary and realising the ups nd down... Emotional, ve…
07-09-2018 74 days without gambling. I'm back to living. …
05-09-2018 72 Days. I realise that the best way to relax is to just...Unwind and be calm. …
04-09-2018 71 Days. Seventy One days away from hell. It was HELL! I have been there and back...It took a long t…
03-09-2018 70. Well I would love to say life is great- but I would be lying. It is how I feel at the time of th…
02-09-2018 69 days. Had a good long sleep..Now having a King's breakfast. …
01-09-2018 68 days. Feel like the anxiety isnt anxiety, its somehow turned into a good feeling. Sun is shining,…
31-08-2018 67 days. Friday. Rest... …
30-08-2018 66 days. Funny how emotions are very strong at times. Life is strange; I see people on different  e…
29-08-2018 65 Days. One more step in the right direction. …
27-08-2018 63 days. Feeling a lot better and not dreaming about gambling at all. …
24-08-2018 60 days. A brilliant milestone. And 1000's left. …
23-08-2018 Hi, Thanks for the support Gamcare. I am grateful to be able to express myself and being able, writi…
22-08-2018 58. …
21-08-2018 57 days. Time continues to tick by and money is still spent at a much steadier pace. The false sense…
20-08-2018 Wow, seems im feeling better as the days go on...Frightens me to think that I'd ever go back to gamb…
19-08-2018 55 Days. It is getting more apparent to myself that as the days go by my brain no longer gambles. I …
17-08-2018 53. Weekend.. Time to unwind. …
16-08-2018 52 days. …
14-08-2018 50 days in. I definitely have to repair my gut by changing diet. I am feeling a lot better and reali…
13-08-2018 49 days. So glad I have gotten this far to now. Today is a good day, with many more to come! I have …
12-08-2018 Thanks Alan. It's reassuring for all the right reasons to connect with someone who knows exactly wha…
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12-08-2018 48 days. My life seems to have changed since I started this latest commitment to STOP. I know that t…
11-08-2018 Going for a slow jog today. …
10-08-2018 Day 46. Hi diary...These days I don't really have compulsive thoughts about winning money... …
09-08-2018 Theanks for the support really am happy you posted on my diary- always a pleasure! It's funny how wh…
08-08-2018 day 44. …
07-08-2018 Day 43. One step closer to responsibilty …
06-08-2018 42 days. Thanks for following me on my journey. …
05-08-2018 I read on sm1's diary from the begining that they couldnt wait to hit 500 days....I followed through…
03-08-2018 39 days. It feels like the person who gambled when I was fully immersed wasn't me? But the thing is …
02-08-2018 I have had lots of thoughts passing through my mind and decided not to jump on those thoughts becaus…
31-07-2018 36 days. Still a heck of an uphill trekk. …
30-07-2018 Back to work... …
29-07-2018 34 days. Time is flying forward now. Tomorrow I start a new job. Getting back on my feet will be goo…
28-07-2018 33 Days. 33 was my lucky number...I used to chase it a lot. Now it definitely is my lucky number bec…
27-07-2018 Ok, One thing that I thought I should write about is a form of balanced thinking. First of all I'm g…
27-07-2018 32. Day 32 and this morning I could finally feel my low mood and emotional baggage coming back. Howe…
26-07-2018 Well, it's 31 days since I decided to quit... My anxiety is actually lifting, the only time I get we…
17-07-2018 Thanks for listening SJW... It means ever so much to me when someone posts on my diary...It gives me…
16-07-2018 21 Days. Does anxiety come from gambling? Probably, coz seeing as i totally removed it- i'm graduall…

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15-12-2017 Stepping into tomorrow