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jo999

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20.03.2017

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I started playing the online slots in October 2015. I enjoyed the games, the excitement and the thrill. I was depositing £10 a time, not huge amounts but they soon added up. I used to win say £70, and withdraw it thinking I had won, however I had probably put hundreds on prior to that 'win'.
Having said that, getting paid weekly, I would pay my bills and anything left over I would gamble. I saw it as my social life so stopped going out, meeting friends etc.
I won £200 once, and withdrew it, then I got to winning £800, gambled it back, but then won the £800 again. I withdrew it, paid off a holiday, bought a new tv and was fairly happy with my 'win' . But in reality I hadnt won anything. Say for example I had saved up all that money I deposited to the the gambling sites I would have been able to buy more than a TV and holiday.
Fast forward to April 2017, and I take up a job which pays monthly - so thats £1300 in my account every month. Its just enough to pay my bills, food shop and petrol. But I want more.
June and July 2017 have been the worst ever. I have gambled all my wages. And not surprisingly lost. The funny thing is I knew it would happen. In June I felt a sense of relief that I had done it and thought 'never again'. But I hadn't learnt because on 26 July, the day after payday my bank balance was £0.02.
I am facing repossession of my house and I face my son disowning me if this happens. This means, in all honesty I will lose my life. I am serious. THIS is serious.
I want my life back. I want to be a grown up as I have responsibilities. I want the anxiety and stress to go away.
I am strong and have been through some tough times so I know I can do this. I am determined to keep my house, to build a better, safer future and to have security. The only way I can do this is to stop gambling.
I am seeking advice, hopefully get some counselling. I am going to confess to my case worker at Shelter who I told I lent some money to someone which was a lie. He is helping me with the possible repossession of my house so i have to be honest.
I have a new bank account and I never want to see a gambling transaction on my statement. I am going to deal with cash from now on, I have scribbled over the CVC number on the back of my new debit card. I am going to get involved with some charity work, to keep me busy and my mind off gambling. I am looking forward to a more enjoyable and rewarding life, and it starts here.

I haven't gambled for

34

days

Date Post
06-08-2018 Hi again, just wanted to post on here to get it out of my system. Had a bad weekend, wanting to gamb…
22-07-2018 How is everyone doing? My post today is a positive one. I have had a fantastic weekend gamble free a…
22-07-2018 Hi Lib I hope you have had a good first weekend. I was jus thinking about your rent arrears. The wor…
20-07-2018 Egdam - than you for your post, some really good advice.  Safe to say I have no trips to the races …
20-07-2018 Hi all Well the progress I have made this week is.... Made good decisions Monday regards to the mone…
15-07-2018 Hi green flash thanks for your comment. You mention financial blocks but haven’t explained or give…
15-07-2018 Hi Lib! Yes i know there are ways and its all about the CASH, cash we love cash, its more real too! …
15-07-2018 Hi and thanks for your comment.   I am a gambler yes, through the online sites. Not being able to a…
15-07-2018 So far so good, you are doing well, we are doing well as I am one week to payday instead of 4! Wow b…
14-07-2018 Thats great to hear you have reached out, your family would want you to! I am 46 too! what a pair we…
14-07-2018 PS. On 14 July 2019 you WILL be sat on a beach with your youngest. I have faith in you :) …
14-07-2018   Hi again snowball! Well i know that feeling all too well. The thing is whats done is done now for…
14-07-2018 Hi there Ive just logged back in after another relapse and read your post.I am so sorry to hear you …
13-08-2017 Hello everyone and thank you all for posting. So i havent logged in for a while, its been a stressfu…
01-08-2017 It will take time,  but you have done the right thing and should be proud of yourself! Well done. I…
30-07-2017 Hi there Sorry to hear this. Firstly no, dont pack your bags. You may need some time to yourself to …
30-07-2017 Well done for posting, and realising so quickly that what you have done. You have probably acted out…
30-07-2017 Hi Jimmy So, I havent really told anyone - only joked about it with certain friends - thats what I d…
30-07-2017 Jimmy I signed up to this site 4 days ago and whilst it is very very early days it is the most impor…
29-07-2017 Thankyou Chars33, I agree, I too just want to win back what I have lost, but I am so possessed by th…
29-07-2017 Hello everyone Thank you for posting. I am truly humbled that people have taken time to write such n…
28-07-2017 I know how you feel. Same payday for me, everything gone. I am so worried right now I havent got a c…
28-07-2017 Hello i just wrote my first and very lengthy post on the new members forum ....it helped getting it …
Date Threads
16-07-2018 Forever diary
15-07-2018 Gamstop success
28-07-2017 Guilty, lonely, empty and broke.