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#1 Posted on:
Tue, 02/03/2010 - 20:48

Beany

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2009-12-08

Well, I already had a diary on here but now that I started gambling again, and now quit for what seems like the tenth time, I better start another diary.

I have lost so much money, about £20K, my family have no idea I have a problem. They think I have a lot of money but don't. I am 24 and been gambling since I was 19. I have spent all my student loan on gambling. Currently in a £2K overdraft and keep gambling online, gambling online and gambling online. I have had accounts with probably 75% of online poker sites around and keep reopening them, lose, then close again.

I just can't seem to stop. The longest that I have ever gone is 24 days, and this was 16 days on this go around but how guess what I gambled. Now I am writing another diary for this time around and hopefully I won't end up gambling again, but that's what we all say.

In a way I am one person, a no body, who cares if I gamble and lose all my money. No one knows me, what's the point.

Well round ten, let's see if I can keep this diary up to date or not.

Good luck guys,

Beany

Posted on:
Tue, 02/03/2010 - 20:59

kim

Joined:
Before 2009

Beany please dont be down on yourself......
you ARE just as important as the next person
it makes me so so sad to read your words "nobody cares if i gamble" those very word form part of how i came to be on this forum .........
http://www.gamcare.org.uk/forum/index.php?tid=10043

you can do this Beany ......

STAY STRONG
Take Care
Kim xx

Posted on:
Tue, 02/03/2010 - 21:03

Jasmine

Joined:
2009-04-23

Hello Beany,

Welcome to the recovery diaries. Never give up giving up......you can do this if you really want to.

Try your best to post every day. Good, bad or indifferent......just post how you are feeling.

We are all in it together on here and there is a lot of really good advice and support.

Just try Beany....give it a go.

Jas x

Posted on:
Tue, 02/03/2010 - 21:06

gull991

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Before 2009

Tell your family, let them help. Honesty is vital if you truly want to change.
It wont be nice telling them but it will be the smartest thing you have ever done.

We can all change but we have to start being honest with ourselves and with others.

Jim (last bet 22/04/06)

Posted on:
Tue, 02/03/2010 - 21:15

Beany

Joined:
2009-12-08

Thanks for your comments guys and Kim for talking to me in the chat room. I read your story and the same thing about what I put and you put being the same. The date that you won't forget is todays date and you have now inspired me to stop. I cried about what happened to your friend and wishing that was me sometimes. I am so scared.

Thank you Kim x