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#1 Posted on:
Mon, 12/04/2010 - 00:02

Beany

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2009-12-08

It's midnight, the time is now for me to make a new start and a new life. I am an addict and lost so much money and im only 24. Just blew £3k from which deposited £150. Just self excluded and big step, never done that and I am blocked on other sites.

Please god, help me through this period of my life and give the guidance for a new one....

Posted on:
Mon, 12/04/2010 - 07:22

Defeated

Joined:
2010-01-25

Nowthen Beany glad you’re still posting. Remember this which i posted on your last diary................

“Beany even if you won say £1000 what difference would that make to your life? Would it change who you are? No, and besides which it probably would be gambled again before it hits your bank account. You’re worth more than this”

If we can’t walk away when we win what’s the point in gambling? You know the answer to this a big fat NONE.

Also we can’t change the past BUT you can influence the future good or bad what you going to decide?

Posted on:
Mon, 12/04/2010 - 17:19

Beany

Joined:
2009-12-08

Hi Defeated, thanks for replying again. I have been in touch with GamCare today talking about the way I am feeling. Not managed to gamble yet. Woke up today thinking Oh My God, I blew £3K yesterday.

Still no one in my family knows about this situation and I am very scared to admit I am an addict.

Beany (Last bet: 11 Apr 2010)

Posted on:
Mon, 12/04/2010 - 18:16

Defeated

Joined:
2010-01-25

Tell some one Beany, you must i think you may be supprised at the result, sure they may be dissapointed but you wont be carrying around the weight of your problems by your self. in your last post you said you havnt managed to gamble yet please DONT. Keep posting have you thought of going to GA? Dont use this site to vent your anger / frustration / self pity, use it to change your life for the good. im only 8 days in but its still 8 days without lying, im keeping a watch out for ya. YOU CAN DO IT!!

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Mon, 12/04/2010 - 18:19

Ex-gambler jeff

Joined:
2009-10-05

Beany

Some very good advice there from defeated.One thing to add i know its hard but please forget about the 3k.Its gone,you will save lots more than that by not gambling.Stay strong Jeff.

Posted on:
Tue, 13/04/2010 - 20:54

Beany

Joined:
2009-12-08

Well, it is day 2 now and still not gambled. I have been on GC a lot and if I feel like playing poker I use the Face Book game. To be honest it is quite good and when I lose I am happy as it is not my money. If I win I just play the higher stakes free play games, lose it all and start again as I get free money back lol. I know it is bad but at least I am not gambling.

I know I won't be gambling for few days as I am going away. Therefore weekend could be the back no no for me!!

Fingers crossed I don't do anything....

Posted on:
Fri, 16/04/2010 - 22:43

Beany

Joined:
2009-12-08

It is day 5 and I still haven't gambled yet. I have been away visiting relatives and they have gambled and it was quite difficult. In another conversation they were saying I was good at looking after my money and wouldn't be stupid to lose it all.

Very hard not trying to say nothing and just kept my mouth quiet or said as long as I am in control it is ok, but it's not :-(

Posted on:
Sat, 17/04/2010 - 22:32

brighteyes

Joined:
2010-03-01

well done on 5 days free im finding it tough at minute but trying not to think of tommorow just looking at getting through today.

Keep it up xx
xBx

Posted on:
Sat, 17/04/2010 - 23:33

Beany

Joined:
2009-12-08

Hey all, day 6 and was at work today and didn't really think about gambling. If I feel like gambling I just go onto Face Book and use a poker software on there. It is good and I know it is still in a way gambling, I am not playing for real. Just came 2nd in a tournament made $200,000, not real of course lol.

But this is helping me with my recovery, what do you guys think...

Posted on:
Sun, 18/04/2010 - 19:58

Beany

Joined:
2009-12-08

Was thinking about playing on ********** today after seeing someone playing on sit and go tournaments. Thought are I could do that, knock out a few players and get some money.

I then thought, I am like £500 left to go until I am out of debt, and it is day 7, why go there again!

Posted on:
Tue, 20/04/2010 - 21:00

Beany

Joined:
2009-12-08

It has been a good day, day 9. I have been on the chat room talking and think I have a feeling about helping people with gambling, I feel like I have the experience with the problem and want to share help, something like that.

I am hoping I can go another week at least without gambling... fingures cross!!