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Posted on:
Fri, 24/10/2014 - 13:40

gazza515

Joined:
2012-03-02

Day 968-985
Been a couple of weeks since my last post, so I thought I'd better up-date. Still not been back to GA, was going last night but a stressful and tiring week got the better of me, and I had an earlyish night instead.
Planning on returning next week though.
Life rolls on. The usual ups and downs that life brings. One thing, NO GAMBLING, that just brings DOWNS!!!
Have a nice weekend if you read this.

Gazza

Posted on:
Fri, 31/10/2014 - 09:39

gazza515

Joined:
2012-03-02

Day 986-999

Tomorrow I hit 1000 days gamble-free and have decided to stop the "day counting". Crazily, it worked for me. I remember significant targets-90, 100, 365 etc. They all helped. Was planning on returning to GA last night but family events conspired against it. Nevermind, I'll try again next week. Have just passed on my congratulations to Dunc on his 1 year-a legend!!!

Best wishes everyone,

gazza

 

Posted on:
Sat, 01/11/2014 - 09:16

I wished

Joined:
2014-04-25

Hi gazza

Thanks for your supportive message, and your inspiration to us all, 1000 days is simply amazing, 

Your determination and pride shines through, very well done indeed.

Suzanne xx

Posted on:
Sat, 01/11/2014 - 10:07

No more

Joined:
2011-06-30

Hi Gazza,

Congratulations on reaching 1000 days. Fantastic stuff!

Best wishes

Dave

 

Posted on:
Mon, 03/11/2014 - 09:54

duncanmac

Joined:
2012-01-26

Gazza

fella thanks for sharing 1000 days continued abstinence WOW

keep making the right choice for you my friend,regards your question I did not take my one year pin again,I am going to take my two year pin next year.

Good for the mind,a target I won't be letting out of my sight.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

Posted on:
Mon, 03/11/2014 - 09:57

S.A

Joined:
Before 2009

Well done Gazza... a great acheivment!

I reached that milestone once but now am back in the proverbial ****.

Am sure you won't let that happen to you.

Once again... well done on your acheivment.

S.A

Posted on:
Tue, 11/11/2014 - 13:59

gazza515

Joined:
2012-03-02

Many thanks for your kind words.

Onwards....

Posted on:
Fri, 14/11/2014 - 17:20

No more

Joined:
2011-06-30

Hi Gazza,

I hope that all is well. Enjoy your weekend.

Best wishes

Dave

Posted on:
Mon, 01/12/2014 - 19:31

Ade2

Joined:
2013-03-17

Hi Gazza,

Returned to the recovery diaries last week for another attempt at quitting gambling, which is going well.

Many congrats on reaching your 1000 days. I remember posting to you when you were on Day 1.

Much respect heading your way from me my friend.

All the best

Ade

Posted on:
Tue, 09/12/2014 - 17:16

No more

Joined:
2011-06-30

Hi Gazza,

I see that it is almost 1 month since you last posted on your diary. I just wanted to see if you are okay.

Best wishes

Dave

Posted on:
Mon, 15/12/2014 - 11:40

gazza515

Joined:
2012-03-02

Morning everyone.

Firstly, NM, thanks for your support and Ade, welcome back mate. There were 3 people who helped me in my early days of recovery-Dunc, Ade and NT. Many, many thanks gents, I couldn't have done it without you.  Ade and NT are back and this forum is better for it. I wish them all the best. Me, well I'm fine. Things go on as normal. lots to do, but it's all good. Stay strong,

Gazza

Posted on:
Mon, 15/12/2014 - 19:14

Ade2

Joined:
2013-03-17

Hey Gazza,

Great to hear from you, and thank you for your kind words on my diary.

So pleased to see you doing so well. I always admired your strength and determination to keep adding the days on your recovery. I often failed, but always thought I was trying. In fact, it is only now that I can see that I am ready to stop once and for all.

Keep strong mate

All the best

Ade

Posted on:
Mon, 05/01/2015 - 13:25

gazza515

Joined:
2012-03-02

34 months ago today, I made a choice to stop gambling before it destroyed me. Quite simply, for me, gambling isn't an option. Debts coming down but it's a struggle at times.

Best wishes for 2015

Posted on:
Mon, 05/01/2015 - 16:11

Ade2

Joined:
2013-03-17

Hi Gazza,

Thanks for your post on my diary, and well done on your continued abstinence.

Keep that strength going mate.

All the best

Ade

Posted on:
Sun, 25/01/2015 - 23:57

Ade2

Joined:
2013-03-17

Hi Mate,

Found you back on page 7!

Just dropping in to say thanks for all you support over the years and let you know that I am 2 months since me last bet. I am doing it now! Took a while I know, but I am doing it at last.......the penny dropped.

Keep strong mate......you're an inspiration.

All the best

Ade

Posted on:
Thu, 05/02/2015 - 13:24

gazza515

Joined:
2012-03-02

Today is 35 months gamble free. I don't post as much these days but i read certain diaries frequently.

It's funny, 30 odd months ago I made contact with this forum. Ade, Dunc and GT/NT became my Gamcare friends. I looked to them for advice and inspiration and I got it when i needed it, finally people who had gone through what I was going through. I thank them again.

Away from gambling, life has its good days and bad days-I'm no different to any other person. Work is difficult at the moment but I'll recover.

Continued best wishes to everyone.

Gazza

Posted on:
Thu, 05/02/2015 - 17:30

Ade2

Joined:
2013-03-17

Hi Gazza,

Thanks for your post mate.

Well done on 35 months!!!! Absolutely fantastic achievement my friend. Inspirational in so many ways to me, because I can remember your very first post so well. I replied to it afterall!..... albeit on my old diary ;0)..... And you have stuck with it mate, and you have reaped the rewards.

I am getting there to slowly. I feel positve and energised by my 10 weeks + of recovery.

Keep strong Gazza......and roll on 3 years gamble free for you!

All the best

Ade

Posted on:
Fri, 06/03/2015 - 11:55

gazza515

Joined:
2012-03-02

Many thanks for your posts, much appreciated.

Well yesterday saw me hit the 3 year mark, doesn't time fly when you're having fun! The harsh reality of my compulsive gambling can still be felt today, but it is easing slowly. The damage we do both mentally and financially, in a few hours, weeks or months, can take years to recover from. I'm getting there but it will take time. I've not been to GA for months now. My usual Thursday GA slot has been filled with family stuff, although recently, I've  taken on a little extra work. I do plan on returning but not in the near future. I cannot live in fear of gambling again. I need to carry cash and cards, they're part of everyday life. What  I have now is an inner strength. Too much to lose. Glad to read all my Gamcare associates are doing well. I wish them continued success. Take care and thanks for reading. Gazza

Posted on:
Fri, 06/03/2015 - 23:28

Ade2

Joined:
2013-03-17

Thanks for your post mate.

Well done on 3 years.....epic

Keep strong

Ade

Posted on:
Sat, 07/03/2015 - 07:41

duncanmac

Joined:
2012-01-26

Gazza.

Fella thanks for popping by my thread, you embraced recovery with great virtue,just look at how much it has rewarded you. 

Keep bringing those changes. 

Most of all Enjoy it. 

Abstain and maintain Duncs stepping forward never back. 

Posted on:
Tue, 07/04/2015 - 11:47

gazza515

Joined:
2012-03-02

Thanks folks for your support.

37 months ago I started this diary as a means to ending the torture caused by gambling. Glad to read all my Gamcare associates are doing well. Stay strong. Gazza

 

 

Posted on:
Tue, 07/07/2015 - 14:48

gazza515

Joined:
2012-03-02

Not posted for 3 months but still read diaries most weeks. All is well. Living alongside a gambling addiction gets easier with time, trust me, but it is hard at times,especially the first year or so. Recovery continues. No turning back . Stay safe. Gazza

 

Posted on:
Fri, 10/07/2015 - 03:22

Ade2

Joined:
2013-03-17

Thanks for the post Gazza.

Keep it going mate.

All the best

Ade 

Posted on:
Sat, 05/09/2015 - 08:16

Ade2

Joined:
2013-03-17

Hi Gazza,

Thanks for your recent supportive post on my diary mate.

Great to get your support as face a different type of recovery following my surgery.

I also just want to say that you continue to be a great inspiration to me.

All the best, and enjoy the weekend.

Cheers

Ade

Posted on:
Tue, 08/09/2015 - 11:37

gazza515

Joined:
2012-03-02

Good morning everyone.

Well it's now 42 months on the recovery road and all is well. the Summer holidays are a distant memory but plans are underway for next year...priceless. Things pretty much as they were. Financial worries easing which is good. It's unlikely that I'll return to GA now, it's been too long. I thank them for the help and support they gave me, especially the first year and a half. Truth is I didn't "fit".i was always referred to as a "Loner", if some had taken the trouble to get to know me better, they would've discovered that it is not the case, I'm just a bit shy that's all! Too many negative comments at times and "advice" given, not always thoughtful or helpful. Some great people though who do a great job every Thurs at my group. Great to read that Ade is making a recovery after his op and i wish him well. Not a day goes by without me thinking about my recovery. The dark days are dimming and the future is bright. I no longer wear the hairshirt, I can't, life is too busy and in it, are people I love very much. Thanks for reading, Stay strong, Gazza

Posted on:
Tue, 08/09/2015 - 12:16

dessieboy

Joined:
2010-12-13

 

 

Gazza

im at the complete opposite extreme to you. It's day one for me.

ive spent a lot of time reading your diary and it truly gives me hope that I can follow in your footsteps.

 

 

 

Posted on:
Tue, 08/09/2015 - 23:50

Ade2

Joined:
2013-03-17

Hi Gazza,

Thanks very much for your kind post on my diary - always brings a smile to my face when you drop in.

You are one of the few people that I have contact on here that can fully understand my recovery from compulsive gambling.

You and I can both remember back at the start of your 42 months, when you were able to dig in and put those days of recovery together. Gaining strength as you did and appearing to be so strong willed, as not to be drawn back into gambling by a random urge. Not sure if you saw it that way, but I drew strength from your drive and your all inspiring ability to do the "one day at a time" approach to a tee. Putting those days together, one by one. creating such a great base for your continued abstinence.

I on the other hand had relapse after relapse at that time. I didnt quite get 'recovery' back then. I had a lot to learn. Thinking I could do it all on my own with just willpower as my main ally. Even though I relapsed again and again. You would always come back to my diary, and offer me encouragement, even though i'd imagine you didn't really need to have the distraction of a serial relapser as you built your recovery.

I will always be greatful. As I am the one in control now, Not gambling controlling me as before.

Keep strong fella. And keep in touch

All the best

Ade

Posted on:
Tue, 22/09/2015 - 08:17

Ade2

Joined:
2013-03-17

Thanks for the post on my diary Gazza.

A pint sounds llike a fantastic idea. I'm off work until the end of November, so I'm pretty flexible with days and dates. Feel free to contact Gamcare to get my e-mail address if you so wish.....

Keep that recovery going my friend, each day you are gaining strength.

Stay strong

Ade

Ps: Mines a Peroni.. ;0)

Posted on:
Tue, 16/02/2016 - 13:16

gazza515

Joined:
2012-03-02

Counting down to 4 years, back soon.

Posted on:
Tue, 16/02/2016 - 14:14

ALAN 135

Joined:
Before 2009

Congratulations mate , truly inspirational !

Best wishes Buddy !

Posted on:
Tue, 08/03/2016 - 11:22

gazza515

Joined:
2012-03-02

Good morning Gamcare.

 

A few days ago I hit 4 years gamble free. My how time flies. Life rolls along with all the usual highs and lows. Gambling is not an option for me. I don't miss it. Nor do i miss the sleepless nights, covering up the financial mess or any of the other bizarre behaviours gambling brought out in me. i've said it many times that this site went a long way to helping me with my recovery. Sadly, Dunc is the only one left out of those people who offered help to me at the start. I'm sure the others are in a better place and continuing their journeys at a pace that suits them. I rarely post but still read fairly often. What has struck me about this board, is the turnover of people who post then don't return, the same was true at GA. Sometimes this meant we were treading the same ground week after week. I wish everyone on here strength and resolve-you can do it, you just have to really WANT to do it. Thanks for reading, Gazza

Posted on:
Tue, 31/05/2016 - 11:25

gazza515

Joined:
2012-03-02

Morning GCarers,

Don't post much these days but still read fairly regularly. Saddened to read that an old GC friend has gambled again. I was sitting in a pub on Sat, a rare event for me these days! i watched as a bloke put £ after £ into the bandit....result? NOTHING. That was me 4 years ago. I was relieved that it wasn't me. As many have stated on here, gambling is everywhere. It's very difficult not to give in to it. However before you do, look around you at your family, friends, house, car etc. This is what you could lose. My goodness this post is gloomy, good job i don't post much. Best wishes, Gazza

Posted on:
Wed, 01/06/2016 - 09:21

Ade2

Joined:
2013-03-17

Hi Gazza,

Thanks for dropping by on my diary mate.

Well done on your continued abstinence. Hats off to you fella, for showing immense strength.

I managed a year, then for some reason thought I could dip back into a few bets here and there. How wrong was I. Still, it was the addiction that made me think it was ok to do that I guess. Logic would have told me what a ***** I was being eh!!

Keep strong my friend

I will beat this again.....for good...one day at a time

All the best

Ade  

Posted on:
Tue, 07/06/2016 - 15:44

gazza515

Joined:
2012-03-02

Thanks for your post Ade.

I'm fine, been visiting the gamcare site more regularly recently. It's that time of the year again with Euro 2016 about to start, Gambling is everywhere and hard to avoid. We need to remember that we are compulsive in our behaviour, 1 bet/win will never be enough. Best wishes, gazza

Posted on:
Tue, 07/06/2016 - 18:13

No more

Joined:
2011-06-30

Hi Gazza,

Thank you for your message. Great to read that you are still going strong. I know that I will never win the money back. It has taken along time and failed attempts to realise it but I am finally at that point. I too will be staying close to this site during the Euros to keep any temptations at bay. 

Best wishes 

Dave 

Posted on:
Thu, 02/03/2017 - 12:22

gazza515

Joined:
2012-03-02

3 days away from ......5 years.

 

Back soon. Gazza515

Posted on:
Sat, 17/02/2018 - 18:19

gazza515

Joined:
2012-03-02

Hi everyone.

Not been on this site in quite a while.

In just over a month’s time,I’ll be 6 years free from gambling. Life goes on. Been catching up with some diaries and it’s good to hear most people are making the correct choices. Stay strong, Gazza

 

Posted on:
Sun, 18/02/2018 - 11:40

Little miss lost

Joined:
2016-05-24

Congratulations gazza - 6 years free from gambling is something we all strive for on here.
Thanks for dropping by to prove to us all that it can be done!!
All good wishes x

Posted on:
Sun, 18/02/2018 - 15:48

Bamb84

Joined:
2018-02-13

Thats amazing hope i can stay gf like you . Thanks for coming back to update its so good to hear it can be done . Take care Bambi

Posted on:
Sun, 18/02/2018 - 17:32

gazza515

Joined:
2012-03-02

Many thanks for your posts. It can be done, it’s not easy. Many lows although the benefits far outweigh them. I don’t miss gambling which is strange as it was part of my life for 30 odd years, although not always compulsive as it became latterly. Stay strong , Gazza

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