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2 and half years... will it continue?

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#1 Posted on:
Wed, 12/12/2012 - 22:50

Beany

Joined:
2009-12-08

Well its almost two and half years since I have quit gambling... what a tough road it has been. I still haven't been to a GA meeting which isn't good, still not told my family which isn't good. And now I am thinking of gambling again because I am so down at the moment in my life, no career, no prospects. I am thinking what is the point anymore.

The good points from being gamble free are that I am not in debt, have money, have a mortgage and am financially secure. I don't worry about phone calls from the bank, family knowing about me being in a £2k overdraft, which no longer have for about 2 years :-) The fact I know have 4 bank accounts all with good money in.

Anyway the main points are im glad I no longer gamble and I used to gamble to get away from my life because I hate it. I hate it still but cannot gamble again. So scared if I do and the consequences that might happen.

Posted on:
Thu, 13/12/2012 - 22:31

Tomso

Joined:
2012-02-26

Beany,
Without trying to upset you I would like to give you my thoughts on your post. You have told us two things. The first is that you haven't gambled in two and a half years, which I will discuss later. The second is that you are unhappy with the current state of your life. It appears to me that you have worked very hard at one aspect i.e. gambling and that has brought nothing but positives such as a very positive bank balance. The other aspect of your life i.e. no career prospects is very disappointing nonetheless this is totally unrelated to gambling and gambling will not improve this situation. What can you do to improve that situation. Can you get a new job, start a new career in a different industry or start out on your own. One area is very good and one, according to your own account, is bad but you are about to make a terrible mistake and therefore make both aspects bad. This will only make you feel worse about yourself. You are not going to gamble for financial reasons but probably to punish yourself. You have achieved something that everyone on this forum wants. Don't underestimate your ability to achieve your next goal, which is to find the career and job you want and deserve. Don't throw away all your previous hard work, desire and determination. We are about to embark on another new year - a fresh start for everyone. Perhaps 2013 will be your best year ever.

Tomso.

Posted on:
Fri, 14/12/2012 - 14:26

TALBS

Joined:
2012-02-01

Please don't do it! JUST DON'T!

It sounds like you have done fantastically well! Just read this forum! Remind yourself of that empty feeling after a gambling binge when all the money has gone, your friends have gone and your life is full of lies!

Well done for coming on here with an honest post! Please don't do it! It will consume you again!

Posted on:
Fri, 14/12/2012 - 15:04

Beany

Joined:
2009-12-08

I reopened an old account and for 24 hours was considering playing poker again. The trill of the game I suppose. Anyway last night I put my details in ready to make a deposit and my mouse was on the submit button for a few seconds, in my hand I had the chance to play again. Then in my head/heart I knew that clicking this button would mean all my hard work would be gone. A few more seconds had passed and what I knew I had to do was not to click the submit button and cancel the transaction, and this is what I did. I then logged of and emailed the company and self excluded.

Now it is a new day once again and still going strong with no blips. Signed up to a gym, got a haircut and said bring it on.

Posted on:
Fri, 14/12/2012 - 15:22

DaveUK

Joined:
Before 2009

Great decision Beany and backs up what I bang on about which is people have to make choices.

You could have opened the account lost loads then come on bleating about a big loss. People then say never mind about the relapse and well done with day 1 etc etc. If you can't do the time don't commit the crime !

Excellent control from you - keep it up and remember you are always just one small bet from disaster.

Am proud of you buddy.
Dave

Posted on:
Wed, 20/02/2013 - 21:26

Stubbsy

Joined:
2013-02-09

Alright Beany? Nice talking to you earlier and just wanted to say you've done amazing this long off the gambling. Keep it up! You're being on here and doing so well is inspiring for others so keep it up and keep encouraging people :)
Stub.

Posted on:
Wed, 20/02/2013 - 22:07

Beany

Joined:
2009-12-08

Thanks for that Stub. Good talking to you too, if you need any help don't hesitate to get in touch. One day at a time is all you can do, the further you get along the easier it gets. Some days are hard but trust me you can overcome these urges.