Today my story is a success I haven't gambled!I haven't gambled now for nearly eleven months and I am proud of myself for that.This time last year I was a broken destroyed mess and coming to the last few .week's of my 18 year gambling journey Gambling had destroyed me it had taken my money my mind and nearly taken my life.I never dreamed that when I placed my first bet I would end up where I did but do any of us That's the reality of what gambling addiction can do .I tried so many times over the years to stop and the longest I ever managed was 3 months I promised myself this time it's my last bet only to be back at it again the very next day.The addiction had me in its clutches and I could not get away.Eventually after 18 years and the most traumatic day of my gambling life I finally said I've had enough I can't do this anymore to myself my family and I want my mind and my life back im ready to stop.I haven't placed a bet since .I joined GA I found gamcare I had counselling I went on chat I put blocks in place i self excluded from bookies casinos bingo halls amusement arcades I put gamstop on my phone .The first few weeks in recovery were a nightmare but gradually the fog cleared and my life started to improve..It can be tough at times the urges come and go and I'm aware the next bet is lurking over my shoulder but I don't want to go back to that place.I live one day at a time that's the best I can do and as long as I don't gamble it's a good day
Everything you share, every time you turn up on the chat gives me a little bit more belief & strength. Your story is a one of hope that needs to be shared for the benefit of those seeking help for the first time. You listen yet make no-one feel uncomfortable, you advise but never judge and when you speak you generate hope.
Thanks for sharing your journey & the pain earlier tonight on the chat. That must have taken great courage, however your efforts weren't wasted. I believe we all took something from your experience. I look up to you & respect you and believe we are all a little richer for having you around us. You're influence has always given hope everyone on the forum.
Sincere Best Wishes