I don't get on here much nowadays but after 645 Gf days of being trapped in addiction i'm finally at peace. Can i change the fact that for almost 5 decades gambling controlled me?, Probably not. So what's to be proud of you may well ask.
Well i get up each morning & those thoughts of what will win the derby or guineas, who'll win the premier league have finally subsided. I go out & i smell FREEDOM rather than enslavement.For the 1st time in ages i can say & mean JUST FOR TODAY I DIDN'T GAMBLE. I've a new retriever pup that i can roll about with & laugh until lockdown's finally over then bestow my love upon my grandchildren when Boris finally tells me it's safe to do so.
I am proud & no longer ashamed of my past. I spent many a day pondering what i'd tell my grandchildren when they asked about my past life. Of course i'll be embarrassed should that day come but i'll also be proud of the fact that i can tell them about my addiction & what it does to people. I can also say that i beat it rather than it beat me. I can't describe the joy of having to kid no one about my bank balance ( be it as low as it is ) about waking up & thinking whatever today brings it's so much better than yesterday. I'm 65 please don't tell me it's too late to stop. Should anyone dare all i know is no one will destroy the the contentment & happiness & joy i feel every morning i wake.
Best Wishes To All On The Forum
I just wanted to pop in to say that I absolutely share your joy in your continued recovery, your courage, strength and integrity is an inspiration to many of us. I shed a small tear of happiness when I read your latest post. You deserve every bit of happiness and I will never forget the care and kindness that you have shown to me through my recovery. I am a fair bit behind you but I am close to having 200 days gamble free under my belt and like you, I am able to take great pleasure out of everything that life has to offer.
You should be proud Al, I am certainly proud of you.
All my love
Nearly 200 days is a fantastic achievement. If you doubt that read my story & understand how many decades it took me to achieve day 1. Life for me isn't about who or what life once was but what life can be. Stay strong, look forward ( not behind ) & enjoy every minute. It isn't just about me but watching you, Boo, Drama & so many others heal is what keeps me going every day.