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Little miss lost
(@little-miss-lost)

Haha! Aye aye captain Stephen - Dream on!!

Mind you, as they say, anything is possible - who knows  who you might meet on your walks around the marina? If that fails, you could always be a stowaway haha!!

I truly hope that my time has come. I hope that yours has too but as we all know, it takes more than hope to recover from this addiction. Unfortunately, its hope that got me here in the first place. Hoping I would win!

I never win, when gambling I just stumble from one month to another, or rather from one pay cheque to another. I'm sick of stumbling. I want to walk again - with my head held high. The stupid thing is that I have had many gamble free months and even though I have never had the thoughts of gambling far from my mind, I have loved the feeling it has given me to be gamble free. Just to look in my bank account and not see any gambling withdrawals and to actually have some money left in it!! 

The joy it brings to walk around a shop and be able to treat myself or my family, even if it's just a bunch of flowers or a cream cake, nothing big, just something that gives joy. Even being able to buy myself a takeaway makes me happy. The times that I have lost money and thought, well I can't buy a takeaway because I lost £50 last night so that's my treat money gone. Madness and not the way I want to live. Mind you, it's when I build up a bit of money, that's when my addicted brain thinks, maybe I could use a bit of it and try to win something to make life a little better? Of course, we all know that it doesn't stop at a bit and before I know it my  savings have gone, I'm cursing, inwardly screaming and kicking myself for failing again! Did it make my life a little better - did it heck!! 

Ah well, back to the word hope. No I don't hope I'll succeed it's only when I say I will succeed and do everything in my power to make me, that's when I become closer to achieving my goal. I've just got to master how to keep the urges and false illusions that I might win at bay. I'm looking forward to that day!!! 

Stay safe and all good wishes, 

Lml x

 

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Posted : 13th January 2021 11:05 pm
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Perfectly true Little Miss. We can hope until the cows come home but without the blocks in place and a good strategy we are facing an uphill struggle.

Not sure if you are aware that Gamcare are arranging for GamCare members to have Gamban installed on their devices free of charge. Just give them a ring if you are interested.

Another new development while you have been away is that some banks are giving customers the option to put a gambling freeze on their accounts. I am with Halifax and did it online in a couple of minutes.

 

Stephen x 

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Posted : 13th January 2021 11:56 pm
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Welcome to Saturday Little Miss.

I imagine the last week has been very hectic for you and your colleagues but now it is Little Miss Chill Time 💃 so treat yourself kindly with smiles and a big dose of gamble-free respect.

Lovely day in Hull and soon I will be heading off for a nice walk. 

 

Wishing you every happiness over the weekend.

Stephen x 

 

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Posted : 16th January 2021 12:19 pm
Little miss lost
(@little-miss-lost)

It's not been the best weather for your walks Stephen. Dodging between the showers.

I can't believe it's Wednesday already tomorrow. Time certainly seems to fly. 

I've been OK lately. Kept completely away from slots of any type. Life definitely improves without them.

Just plodding on. Got quite a bit on my plate at the minute with one thing and another. Must admit. I don't really like to give details in case somebody recognises who I am. Is that a bad thing? Guess that's the shame of gambling! 

Not a lot to say really, just thought I'd say hi! 

Take care and stay safe, 

Lml x

 

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Posted : 19th January 2021 10:18 pm
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