So yesterday was a bad day emotionally... I set off for work feeling okay about 2 and a half hours into my journey I took the wrong turning twice and that was it spent the next hour in a car park sobbing my heart out... Rang work and they told me to go home once I was safe was feeling so ridiculous and really wanted to gamble as I believe it's emotionally linked.... But I played candy crush instead... No cards or anything linked so don't buy in app purchases for the whole day I could not work out how to write on here my mind just went blank I tried so hard but couldn't do it
Then my boss tells me my behaviour wasn't acceptable and it's not good for business.... I have to go for a meeting. I am absolutely horrified when my boss has always been so understanding... I've had a banging headache all day and I'm really jumpy I tried to get a docs appointment as my anxiety is tricky at the moment but non available.
Hate being on this roller costed of emotion here's to day 29 GF and its blooming hard....
So yesterday was a bad day emotionally... I set off for work feeling okay about 2 and a half hours into my journey I took the wrong turning twice and that was it spent the next hour in a car park sobbing my heart out... Rang work and they told me to go home once I was safe was feeling so ridiculous and really wanted to gamble as I believe it's emotionally linked.... But I played candy crush instead... No cards or anything linked so don't buy in app purchases for the whole day I could not work out how to write on here my mind just went blank I tried so hard but couldn't do it
Then my boss tells me my behaviour wasn't acceptable and it's not good for business.... I have to go for a meeting. I am absolutely horrified when my boss has always been so understanding... I've had a banging headache all day and I'm really jumpy I tried to get a docs appointment as my anxiety is tricky at the moment but non available.
Hate being on this roller costed of emotion here's to day 29 GF and its blooming hard....
Hello takenafirststep
Firstly I would like to congratulate you on reaching 29 days gamble free. The road to recovery is often not a smooth straight line and experiencing some turbulence is quite normal during your journey. It sounds like you have a lot going on right now emotionally and pursuing a GP appointment seems to be a positive move once one becomes available for you so I would suggest you keeping pushing for that.
On a practical level you may find some gambling site phone blocks helpful if you have not done so already. I will post a link to both GAMSTOP & GAMBAN for you to have a look at as an extra aid to your gambling prevention at the end of this message.
Keep posting on the forum and feel free to contact our 24/7 helpline: 0808 8020 133 or use our 24/7 Netline service if you are struggling and would like additional support.
Tom
Forum Admin
Well done on 29 days gambling free. Sorry about the c**P you going through x
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