Time to write

Finally back on after not being able to log in for so long! Writing on here is like my comfort blanket and not being able to write or just contribute to others posts was a struggle and I found the urges a lot more frequent. Thankfully I overcame them by keeping myself busy and lots of soul searching and I'm happy to say I made my so wanted milestone of 100 days!

I'm by no means cured of this life sucking monster but day by day I feel like I get a little bit stronger.

Always. Keep. Fighting.

JW_ wrote: Hi Donna,

You still doing okay? Just checking up 🙂

Hi JW
Thanks for checking in on me, not been able to log in so apologies for my delay! I'm doing OK, still plodding along doing my best to combat the urges, still gets to me how they just appear out of knowhere like a huge wave in your brain, takes a lot of energy still to fight them away!

You are doing well, day 56 now that is a major deal...so happy for you!

D x

JW

Dear Donna2501,

Congratulations for the 100days gamble free. You sound focused and motivated and even when the forum was not available you managed to keep yourself busy with meaningful activities.

You are doing well!

Best wishes

Forum Admin

Nice one Donna. You've done brill! Its great to hear you doing so well.

signalman wrote: Nice one Donna. You've done brill! Its great to hear you doing so well.

Thankyou! You are too from what I've been reading, tackling the hurdles well, you should be proud of yourself 🙂

Dx

Forum admin wrote:

Dear Donna2501,

Congratulations for the 100days gamble free. You sound focused and motivated and even when the forum was not available you managed to keep yourself busy with meaningful activities.

You are doing well!

Best wishes

Forum Admin

Thankyou! Having struggles daily but staying strong.

D x

Donna2501 wrote: [quote=JW_]Hi Donna,

You still doing okay? Just checking up 🙂

Hi JW
Thanks for checking in on me, not been able to log in so apologies for my delay! I'm doing OK, still plodding along doing my best to combat the urges, still gets to me how they just appear out of knowhere like a huge wave in your brain, takes a lot of energy still to fight them away!

You are doing well, day 56 now that is a major deal...so happy for you!

D x

JW

Thanks Donna! Glad to hear you're still keeping on! Keep it going 🙂

JW

Day 118

Everytime I go over my finances I get twitchy, really wish the feelings of wanting to turn back the clock would go I need to look ahead and its really difficult at times. Off to bed for me it's been a hard one today.

Always.Keep.Fighting.

Donna2501 wrote: Day 118

Everytime I go over my finances I get twitchy, really wish the feelings of wanting to turn back the clock would go I need to look ahead and its really difficult at times. Off to bed for me it's been a hard one today.

Always.Keep.Fighting.

You know what mate... I want to turn the clock back so much sometimes... But if someone actually gave me a clock that could do that where would I turn it to? What's the point in turning it back to the time I had money because alongside that I didn't have any sense of discipline and responsibility. I didn't really see further than my own nose. All the things I have learnt since my ordeal in many ways are priceless. They last for the rest of my life and never have an expiry date. I'd probably just give the clock back tbh ;o)

signalman wrote: [quote=Donna2501]Day 118

Everytime I go over my finances I get twitchy, really wish the feelings of wanting to turn back the clock would go I need to look ahead and its really difficult at times. Off to bed for me it's been a hard one today.

Always.Keep.Fighting.

You know what mate... I want to turn the clock back so much sometimes... But if someone actually gave me a clock that could do that where would I turn it to? What's the point in turning it back to the time I had money because alongside that I didn't have any sense of discipline and responsibility. I didn't really see further than my own nose. All the things I have learnt since my ordeal in many ways are priceless. They last for the rest of my life and never have an expiry date. I'd probably just give the clock back tbh ;o)

Hey, thanks for your words!

New day today feeling positive again. I agree lessons are learnt and we do become stronger I just get gutted for falling into this trap but it's happened and looking to the future is the I ky way forward.

Dx

Day 124

Not much to report, still taking everyday as it comes, still getting urges, still managing them although some days that is easier than others!

Always.Keep.Fighting

Hi Donna, congratulations on your continued abstinence from the demons of gambling. I’ve missed interacting on here with people like you. I plan to stick around to give you plenty of encouragement along your journey.

Keep it going. Dan x

Thanks for your kind words hun I'm still hanging in there! I missed you when you went off the grid for a while! I've not been coming on here much don't know why really, sometimes I just don't have much to say! Hope your ok and your determination levels are high 🙂
Dx

Day 154
Finding this week pretty hard, had some dark thoughts and it seems there are more and more adverts on the TV and radio...or maybe I'm just more in-tune to them at the minute. Keep reminding myself how far I've come and thank god I'm stubborn, no way am I giving in now, just need to dig deeper for the willpower.

Happy gamble free Wednesday's everyone x

Hi Donna

Just wanted to say hello and also to keep going as you are a strong, amazing person who's kindness transcends gambling.

I say this because I was reading back the first few posts from my diary today (for a boost of self-will) and wanted to thank you wholeheartedly for the support you offered me at the beginning of my journey - in those dark days. You were amazing, I really mean that. I was a stranger to you and you took time to pick me up from the depths of despair with kindness and support. Thank you. f**k gambling... you're far more amazing than gambling ever is or was.