For the past 2 years my gambling has been getting out of control. It was steadily getting worse until it recently came to a head. I was playing slots every free minute I had every day.
I have spent every penny I have in my account and also borrowed a lot of money for gambling, I have never felt so low.
It all got too much for me at the end of last week and I broke down in front of my wife and came clean about everything. She went mad at first, we didn't talk for a couple of days. We are now back to normal, although I know I will need to build the trust back up after the years of lying to her.
The debts I'm not too worried about, I will be able to be debt free in about a year. It was my mental health that was making me feel ill.
Tonight I have signed up to gamstop and have gave control of my finances over to my wife.
Time for a new beginning and my first gamble free day starts tomorrow.
Day 1 nearly done.
Been at work today so my mind was taken off things. Knowing that I am blocked from all my betting accounts has really helped and took any temptations away.
Feeling proud that even though it's only a Day, it's the first day in as long as I can remember that I haven't had a bet. Here's hoping I can keep it up.
Welcome to the diaries Jimmy.
You have admitted to being a compulsive gambler, you have been honest and open with your wife and you are here. That is an excellent start to your recovery.
There are many here who have successfully stopped gambling for long periods of time. Sadly, there are also some, like me, who have relapsed on several occasions but all that does is prolong the misery.
Here, at the very least, you are amongst people who might have an understanding of what you have been through and can offer you support and encouragement.
For a compulsive gambler to stop gambling is not easy but it can be done.
I wish you every success.
its fantastic to see your posts
you have taken excellent first steps at the start of a long journey ahead.
i will keep a look out for your future posts to see you beat this awful addiction which is going to happen
keep the faith mate and fight the urges
Thanks everyone for the positive messages, means a lot talking with people that are going through the same problems.
Haven't been online the past few days so time for a wee update.
That's me onto day 6 and still gamble free. I really can't believe that tomorrow will be a week without gambling.
I really can't stress how good gamban has been and would recommend it to anyone going through gambling problems.
Worked out my finances and how much I need to pay per month to get myself debt free. Will take a while, but it's going in the right direction.
Here's to staying gamble free.
You have everything in place to stop gambling well done.
telling your partner is something I regret not being able to do but we are all different, good for you though as it takes guts.
good luck, stick with it as she’s stood by you, you may only get one chance at this, take it.
Thanks for the post, I know this is my last chance to save my family so feel determined to keep it going.
To be honest it took years before I could tell my partner, and being truthful she only found out because I had got in so deep a hole that I couldn't hide it any more.
Telling her was the hardest part, but I'm glad I did. Feels like years of lies and deceit about money have now got a line drawn under them.
Good luck to you on your journey too.