there are over 2019 reasons to not gamble this year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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DeterminedDan
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Hard luck Adam, but also well played! 

Yes, you’ve relapsed (name me one person on here who hasn’t!) but more importantly, you’ve responded superbly. 

Firstly, by not thinking f*** it, I’ve gambled, I may as well make the most of it and go hell for leather! You’ve limited the damage which is something that not many on here would do in that situation.

And secondly, for realising/accepting straight away that you’d made a mistake and for getting back into the mindset of being a non-gambler.

Chin up, Adam. We go again!...

 
Posted : 29th May 2019 11:20 am
holycrosser
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echo the posts above, it’s how you react.no massive harm done thankfully.

 

go again, don’t get dragged in.

 
Posted : 29th May 2019 2:05 pm
(@adam123)
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thanks a lot for the support, I don't get many posts from others on my diary but this shows me that there support when u need it the most. its defo good to get I in perspective, I have stumbled but it was in a controlled manner and i did get to see a lot of mates again that I haven't seen since last summer. So In a way I'm gutted to not hit the year mark but I'm thankfl in a say because staying gamble, smoke and alcohol free is somewhat of a pressure too much on me.so thanks again for all the support.

 
Posted : 29th May 2019 2:19 pm
Aum
 Aum
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Adam you are indeed a well respected member of the gamcare community and I join with your other friends in wishing you well.

I would like to add my voice to all the supportive posts you have received and I must say I agree with all of what they have to say.

You have proved yourself to be a wise man of courage, integrity and self belief. I see no reason why that poker game with your friends should be allowed to affect your recovery. Let your eyes focus on the journey ahead and keep blazing that trail.

Ps. My memory is not too good but I think sometime in the past I have relapsed once or twice! 

Respect from your friend Stephen.

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Posted : 29th May 2019 3:41 pm
(@adam123)
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cheers stephen much love adam 

 
Posted : 29th May 2019 4:01 pm
Gareth1983
(@gareth1983)
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Hi Adam.

I can only really echo what others have already said. It's a slight blip, no financial damage done. Don't beat yourself up about it mate. re focus and get back to it.

I know you were looking forward to one year GF. Keep going. One calender year with only one small blip is still a bloody good achievement in my eyes and something to be proud of.

Good luck and stay strong

 
Posted : 30th May 2019 8:11 am
(@adam123)
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After speaking to people on chat and to my mum I'm going to keep my day count as it was as a six pound game of cards over my holiday really isn't a relapse in many peoples views and hasn't effected my badly, so ill just say I've gone x number of days only spending a tiny amount obn gambling,

 
Posted : 30th May 2019 4:54 pm
signalman
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Yeah I mean you do whatever you want mate, you don't have to justify your journey to anyone on here you know?

As I've always said - in many ways I wish I was someone who could have a game of cards once a year with friends. But one bet leads to a hundred bets for me.

All our wirings are different, so will all our journeys be. But for sure if we travel these roads together the journeys are easier ?

 
Posted : 30th May 2019 5:32 pm
slowlearner
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Hi Adam,

Sorry to hear about your relapse and i know how disappointed you must be after posting on how you were looking forward to being 365 days gamble free. At the end of the day what is 365 ? its just a number. I know im just looking forward to you being back on the chatline.

Youve been a great source of support & inspiration to myself & others on here and its your optimism thats been so infectious to so many who were thinking about giving up thats kept us fighting. I feel blessed having you to share this arduous journey ive struggled with & hope youre gonna continue to be marching along side by side with me.

Looking Forward To Hearing From You

 

Al

 
Posted : 30th May 2019 9:38 pm
bdog
 bdog
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Don’t dwell on it mate.

The old you wouldn’t have even mentioned it. You’d have covered it up or pretended it never happened.

The fact you’re openly discussing it and considering if it’s a relapse or not just shows how far you’ve come. 

 
Posted : 30th May 2019 10:02 pm
(@adam123)
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Yep im happy with how this year has gone soo many great positives have come out of this year, im healthy, im not spending shed loads of cash a month, im not smoking or drinking, even yesturday at the pub i said it was my birthday and people were like why u not drinking and i was just like cos i dont drink.  Its honest to say that i did play poker last night at the thursday game (as it was my birthday and im still on holiday i thought i might as well meet up with those friends too,  was great fun i played really well and got very lucky on a couple of occasions.  I know for sure i will only play these games when im on holiday maybe a couple of times a year to keep up to date with mates.  I ended up third out of 32 people winning a huge 15 pounds (lol its really not about the money with pub poker just the socialising), so over to two games im four pounds up and thats where i will stop!!!!  Im very very thnakfull for the positive posts on my diary, im back on day 292 and feeling positive that i can hit the year not losing any money thru gambling.  Over and out.

 
Posted : 31st May 2019 12:25 pm
(@adam123)
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In two hours the football game of the season will comence and and hugely looking forward to it as spurs will be in it tonight.  Lets enjoy this.

 
Posted : 1st June 2019 5:00 pm
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Well here i am at the end of my holiday, nine days have flown by and im back at work tomo (ohhh no).  Mixed feelings about this week as i gambled a small amount of money.  The thing is i cant change the past and i didnt lose any money and i did see a lot of old mates again.  Looking forward to getting back on the non gambling grindstone.  Im 38 years old now too which is another year i've gone past.  Spent just over 150 pounds this week but bought a few presents for my mum and bought some dvds and cds and clothes and went to the cinema.  So iverall it was a good week.  Just one week back at work and got a long weekend away from work to watch the england games.  Seen some old faces on the website this weekend which is good to see, its funny how a lot of people go away and come back and i just stay here everyday, week, month, year etc lol.  Ive still got two holiday days in august for a friends wedding, then a week off in december and ive still got 8 days holiday to take so in pretty good state of affairs holiday wise.  Just a shame to go back but all good things come to an end.    

 
Posted : 2nd June 2019 2:41 pm
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Today is 18th of august 2019 and ive had a mini step backwards in the past 2 months and have gambled in pub poker for small stakes.  Now ive had some great times doing this but ive neglected my recovery.  Thoughts were coming back of gambling online, in casinos, going to vegas when im older, going into bookies when wlaking past (thoughts of not actually doing them).  I set up a mini spreadsheet at the start to track all my gambling and after ten games I was 29 pounds down not bad), then last night won so now im up not by much but up on gambling so ive spent nothing on gambling for a year and 6 days.  Now earlier in the day I was looking up vegas holidays and thinking about gambling more and getting right back into the place ive been many times before, into a compulsive gambler mode!  So I thought id read back one of my diarys, so I started this one and flicked through quite a few of the pages and boy have I come through a lot to be in the positive situation with regards to gambling, my finances, work and most importantly my health.  Now I was soo happy spending more time with family and staying away from pubs.

 

So ive decided to reset my day counter, continue on this successful diary and hopefully remind myself each day of what ive been thru by reading back posts ive previously written.   

 
Posted : 18th August 2019 9:00 pm
(@adam123)
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Im going to have to fill my spare time so im going to watch football and have another health kick

 
Posted : 18th August 2019 9:11 pm
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