Just wondered if anyone else as found this out. For the first time since I stopped gambling I have carried cash. I normally keep away from this as a block against temptation. Last week I had 200 pound in cash. I have been spending 10 pound here and there. I just went into my packet and to my surprise had 150 left. I had to double check. I remember when I was gambling I used to worry that 200 pound wasn’t enough for a day. It’s really just hit me how much money I used to waste gambling
stay strong guys
Mikee
So true. What I noticed was how money started to lose its value while I was gambling. Going back a few years while I was sports betting, I was averaging 250-300 loss a month. The last year it has been slots....what a downfall. 250-300 would be the loss just for day! I have lost so much money this year. So ashamed of myself.
J
It’s a good point actually 👍 yes you are perfectly right.
Today is my 48th day GF & I am slowly putting small amounts of money a side rack month which feels great.
For so long I associated gambling as a form of income for example...placing a £500 bet on football at 1/5 odds to get £100 back & then thinking if I win that £100 is my weekend money, but 9/10 that never happens & the £500 is lost.
Sadly the pain of losing a massive amount of money will always stay with me, but we have to look forward & put it down to a life lesson.
Each day does get easier, so please people who are only a few days gamble free, please stay determined, disciplined & dedicated to your recovery as the first weeks are the most important.
Let’s beat this before it beats us.
Can totally relate to that, c17. I would hit atm and then proceed to put 200 on a odds on fav and think it will pay for my betting next few days and I would then lodge the initial 200 in bank next day. 200 is gone and then the chase is on , and another visit to atm.
crazy mindset of a gambler
Hi Mikee.
Yes its one of the strong signs we are coming to our senses. Money will be about in our accounts and homes.
Its a strange feeling at first as we come to terms with it. Its also seems more money than we thought we could save/have spare at our income level.
Deep down I do have a careful ability with money. It was something the addiction completely squashed.
I look at money now and cant believe it was me that chucked it away on the push of a button. I used to feed it into note grabbers like it was nothing but blank pieces of paper!
Use it as a strong sign but there are other things you must keep talking through to never be complacent again
Best wishes from everyone on the forum
Thanks for the reply. I completely get your thinking with the losses but you just have to own them, hard though I know. You sound be so proud of your self that you have stopped and the fact you are ashamed of the losses really means you Truly know the value of your losses know
keep it up
