The diary I should of done 9 months ago

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Dear @sensesfail,

Massive congratulations on 148 days gamble free, so pleased to see you are doing well.

Keep up the good work and keep us posted.

All the very best,

Eva

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Posted : 30th June 2021 10:13 pm
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148 Days GF ?

Ridding life of crazy slots

Animals jumping fences

Gave a life more meaning

To a friend we know as Senses

 

Suffered greatly for twelve years

But now stands nifty and thrifty 

I raise my glass to noble man 

On gamble-free day 150

 

Respectful best wishes 

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Posted : 3rd July 2021 10:59 am
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Thank you Admin and Aum!

Just logged in and saw this as I was wondering how many days it had been since I last posted. 165 day GF now. Keeping myself busy skateboarding as usual and looking after my two beautiful girls. Hope everyone is still doing well ??

 
Posted : 18th July 2021 10:57 am
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Just popped on as I have a spare few minutes to read some posts. Makes me feel sad all the people in this horrible situation of addiction, debt ect. ? I'm awfully close to my longest stretch so far of being GF, it will feel like such a relief to get past this little milestone. I haven't really thought about gambling much as I've been so focused on my skateboarding which is great, I absolutely love it. I'm really glad I've got all the bans/blocks/restrictions in place and my wife is fully in control of my finances as I know full well if this wasn't the case there's no way I would be where I am so far. I'm glad I'm still moving forward, I've still got a very long road ahead to pay off all my loans but I'll get it done. Still taking it one day at a time. For me the worst feeling at the moment is not having any spare cash to treat my family, I can't wait for the day I can spend my well earned pennies on them!

176 days GF

 
Posted : 28th July 2021 3:39 pm
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First time in ages I haven't felt like myself, I'm in my own head lately, it's not good. I'm sure I'll snap out of it, probably because I've been at home because of a sick bug. Lack of energy or motivation and just feeling grumpy, this isn't like me at all.

Finding it hard not to dwell on the past and keep pushing on. This is probably the first negative post I've ever written but thought it was an important one to note down. Not everyday is going to be a good one. 

Had some thoughts about gambling last week but nothing that makes me want to even go do it at all.

228 Days GF

 
Posted : 18th September 2021 12:59 pm
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Hi SensesFail,

Sorry you're not having a great time at the moment. It is good that you're not letting it derail you and well done on staying gamble free. If you want to talk about it feel free to contact us on the helpline on 0808 8020 133 or by Livechat.

Keep posting,

Deirdre
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Posted : 18th September 2021 9:31 pm
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Posted by: Forum admin

Hi SensesFail,

Sorry you're not having a great time at the moment. It is good that you're not letting it derail you and well done on staying gamble free. If you want to talk about it feel free to contact us on the helpline on 0808 8020 133 or by Livechat.

Keep posting,

Deirdre
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Thanks ? I'm all good just needed to vent and thought the diary would be the best place. Thanks for your support and being here for everyone, you guys do an amazing job ???

 
Posted : 19th September 2021 8:55 pm
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Just checking in real quick as I know its been a while since I posted anything. October is a busy month for me.

Currently sitting at 264 days GF!

Really looking forward to hitting that 1 year milestone. Even though everyday feels like an accomplished without gambling anymore and I'm not trying to make it about the milestones, something about making it a full year is just making me feel great. I know I still have over a 100 days so it's very soon to start talking about it like I've made it already but I can just tell the next 3 months are going to fly by because of Christmas coming up.

Everyday is a step closer to getting my debts payed off and I can't wait for the day I feel financially comfortable, rather than just getting through the month until the next payday. Its been very tough but its the only way, I know this and I just keep my head down and do what has to be done. It's all in the past now and I'm focusing on my future.

Hope everyone is doing alright ??

 
Posted : 24th October 2021 7:58 pm
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Yup and just like that, all that time has passed so quickly, I knew it would! I'm back for a quick post just before the 1 year GF milestone! It's just around the corner now, next month! Very mixed emotions on it all but I'll tell you one thing, I can't believe how quick that year has gone without gambling in my life! Currently sitting on day 338 GF! I can't believe it, I just read a post where someone else has made a year GF and mentioned how quick the time had gone too! I hope everyone is still fighting and staying strong in these tough times. Hope you all had an amazing Christmas and a Happy New Year ? Really excited and looking forward to the beginning of February! Take care everyone ❤ 

 
Posted : 6th January 2022 7:37 pm
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1 Year GF!

I can't believe it, feeling so proud of myself and thankful for the people who have stuck with me through everything I have done!

My wife gave me a card and a frame with a poem in, I got her a card some flowers and a little treat yesterday aswel just to say thanks ? 

Having a treat breakfast this morning with the family and I've saved some Bucks Fizz from Christmas to pop this morning to celebrate ? ??

To anyone reading this that's struggling, YOU CAN do it! I didn't think I'd get this far but once you get going with the right steps in place you will be fine.

Wishing everyone all the best

Take care

Dean ? 

 
Posted : 3rd February 2022 7:08 am
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Well done! I remember reaching this milestone last year and it, for some reason, changed how I felt for the better. To be able to abstain for this long is brilliant and now look forward to the rest of your life gamble free

 
Posted : 4th February 2022 6:26 pm
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Posted by: @bladesman

Well done! I remember reaching this milestone last year and it, for some reason, changed how I felt for the better. To be able to abstain for this long is brilliant and now look forward to the rest of your life gamble free

Thank you ? Yes definitely, well done too ?? 

 
Posted : 4th February 2022 7:11 pm
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Congratulations @Sensefail for reaching a Year milestone!

This is a really good achievement and it is nice to hear that you and your wife were able to celebrate this occasion with one another. 

Wishing you all the best for your continued journey. 

Ricki

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Posted : 5th February 2022 10:33 am
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@forum-admin Thank you so much ??

 
Posted : 16th February 2022 9:41 pm
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Not checked in for a couple of months now, actually since I hit my 1 year GF anniversary! I'm still going to post on my diary but just probably not as many entries as last year. Was going to do a post the other day but wanted to do one when the time felt right. So roughly early this month 2 years ago I had just taken out another loan. 20K to be exact. Within a few days I blew it all and also had myself in some serious debt to go with it. My life was a mess! But as I've mentioned before in most my posts, I've done everything I needed to do, kept my head down and I'm now over a year gamble free and slowly paying my debts off. I always look back and think it wouldn't be possible to stop gambling! Imagine how much worse my situation would be if I still carried on for another 2 years. That week/month was bad enough! There would be no way that I could of possibly happened anyway as I couldn't afford to survive and the truths all had to come out and yes it was obviously the best thing that could of happened, it's literally saved me from myself. I still have a massive road ahead of me to get completely free of my debts and money back to the amazing people that have helped me! Even though I've made some horrible choices that effect me and my family pretty much everyday, I stay strong! I have too, you can't buckle. But when that day comes boy am I going to celebrate ? 

Take care guys ?

 
Posted : 6th April 2022 7:20 pm
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