A strange kind of day, good though I think. I have spent the whole day so far thinking how much of an idiot I have been and how I have managed to let my self down so much before I joined here. It’s strange as it’s not like a negative feeling I just feel like I have gained a real inner strength something new that I have never had before.
I think I’ve beat this sick addiction
I’m out again early to meet friends in the pub. A couple of regulars in the pub was speaking to me and said they have a certainty on the betting. Usually I would rush there and have a bet 100 or so. I felt worried what do I say. I turned around and said guys I have finished with all that. It felt quite liberating! 10 minutes later they came back and said it got beat. It really didn’t matter I knew I had already won say no
Well done mikee brilliant I am 45 days today and it absolutely amazes me that I'm doing this as for the last roughly 2 years I gambled every day for several hours every day. Gamstop has been the gamechanger for me. Knowing that I can't gamble is giving me the confidence to face the addiction and work through my problems. If you read through your posts from the beginning you can see your strength building , keep posting its doing you good. I'm so glad I found this forum as getting your worst thoughts out there and having people take the time to post for you give advice and support is invaluable. Keep going and best wishes
Hi there Charlie. Congrats on the 45 days.
Thanks for taking time to reply like many of you good people have. I agree the community the posts the replies all help keep a lid on this.
I knew the power of people s support and have been replying due to that. But I’m going to set myself a target of replying to one message minimum every time I log in .
with out this like you said it would be Soo much harder.
what are you doing with all your spare time ?
It just all feels normal. Day 35 of not gambling and it’s my first week back at work. Furlough has taken its toll on a lot of my office not having a job to go back to. I have been one of the lucky ones, it doesn’t come without its tests though. 13 hour Long days to cover the staff shortages made by cut backs. The pressure has been enormous but I haven’t once felt like gambling. Less pressures have made me go to escape with gambling before. I feel like it’s just normal now not to gamble and I don’t have any urges. The change has been remarkable I never thought it 35 Long days ago. Keep going people we can all beat this