Well done for staying 16 days gamble free and i am glad to hear that your urges have gone away too. Well Done. Do try and Stay occupied with any hobbies or activities to keep your mind off gambling, particularly in your spare time. Keep up the good work and keep posting.
Thank you Asim!
Now day 19. Still gamble free. I recognise that I am starting to think about slots as something fun again from time to time. So I need to be very careful.
Like you said Asim, I am keeping busy. Whenever I have the urge to gamble I go and play an immersive video game, go for a walk or something similar. With time the urge passes and all is well again.
Thanks again for reading and commenting on my diary :-).
You are doing a fabulous job. The days are passing and in time it gets easier. I know this from experience.
Don't be fooled by urges. The addiction tries to pull you back in. As time goes on the urges will subside. This I also know from experience.
Breaking any habit or addiction is always toughest at the beginning because it is knew. This could be as bad as it will get so get through it, stay on track and work towards what will definitely be a far better, happier and more fulfilling life full of new opportunities.
At the end of each day give yourself a pat on the back. You are doing a marvellous thing. Be proud of yourself.
Back to day 1 again for me.
In short, the following happened.
Received some free bets from somewhere that I wasn't excluded yet (forgot I had an account there). Won some money on the slots. Enjoyed the winnings for a day. Lost it later of course, hoping to win more. Started depositing my own money to chase the loss. Same old story again :-).
Mentally I am doing okay. I kind of have to laugh at how stupid I was (again). There is no such thing as a free bet.
I have excluded myself now of course.
Hopefully I have learned from this. Don't even click the 'spin' button on the slots with free money.
Just wanted to be honest here that I made a mistake. No major harm done, but disappointed in myself that I did this. No use beating myself up over it though. Just do better from now on.
So today is May 15th 2020. Hopefully the last day I gambled.
Dear @reminder ,
Thank you for posting with such honesty on the Forum today. I am sorry to read you have had a slight blip but glad to hear that you're doing ok mentally and that you're not giving yourself a hard time over it.
These things happen but you have taken action straight away and that can only be a good thing. I'm not sure if you're aware, but www.gamstop.co.uk now excludes you from all UK licensed online gambling sites so rather than excluding yourself from individual sites, you can do them all in one fell swoop. Additionally, we recommend a blocking software app such as www.gamban.com and this will stop any offers for free bets in the future.
Please don't hesitate to get in touch with our helpline (0808 802 1033) or live chat on the Netline if you feel you need to talk to an adviser or gain any further support. We are always here for 24 hours a day, seven days a week.
All the very best.
Unfortunately I am elsewhere in Europe so gamblock does not work for me I guess. Besides I found a way to gamble anyway if I want to. I won't share it here since I don't want to give people ideas.
That being said, I should just do better next time.
Thanks again for your kind words and advice!
I feel a bit more down today. However, determined to have learned from this.
I made it 3 weeks before this relapse. This time I will do even better and hopefully recognize the dangers in an earlier stadium next time.
Thank you for sharing your journey - I look forward to following it. I admire your honesty about going back to day 1 and wish you all the best with your journey. I am sorry to hear you're feeling a bit down, but hopefully you can try and get back to some positive thinking.
Thank you for your comment!
I had a headache the whole day yesterday and felt pretty down about blowing a big chunk of my savings yet again. It is embarassing to look at my account history and bank transactions to be honest. You can just see all the times where it went wrong.
I really hope to still post here a year from now. At that time it would be awesome if my bank account and transaction history would look boring as hell :-).
Anyway. I have cleaned myself up again for the most part. There is still lingering frustration with myself, but the only way is onwards and upwards.
Thanks to everyone who reads my diary, even if you don't post a reply.
Feeling a bit better. However, still a bit gutted about the fact that I lost an amount of savings that will take me months to replace. Nobody to blame but myself.
I think boredom due to the (partial) lockdown measures have played a role in my relapse. There is not much to do and one can only play so many video games, read so many books and take so many walks.
Next time I feel bored I will find something better to do than blow about one third of my savings in a few hours of clicking a button 😉
Thanks for your reply. I will take a better look into Gamban and see what it does exactly.
I was talking about Gamstop before, sorry for the confusion, I think I mixed the two of them up, either in my head or in writing.
I am not that keen on installing such software for various reasons. It doesn't have anything to do with the blocking mechanism, but with other personal preferences and concerns that I have with software like that. I know that sounds like a load of **** coming from someone who wants to quit gambling, but if that is the case, then it can't be helped :-).
I do appreciate you asking critical questions. Your time and effort is appreciated. I will look into Gamban, review the factors I find important and make a decision.