@magnetism Have you looked into going to Gambler's Anonymous to be among like minded people?
You might find answers there that you don't yet know the questions to, rather than look for answers to questions that you don't need to know the answers to.
I realise that there probably should be some mystical music playing as you read that bit above but I hope it makes sense.
No, I havn't due to the distance I have to travel to the meetings. However, I am grateful for your input.
I did, speak to an advisor and they put me through to the NHSgamblingclininc and they offered me a referral to CBT gambling focussed. Therefore, I am going to reach some answers and find reasons with that. I am certain it will support me through this battle. For me, gambling isn't just about stopping. It is more about my physical and mental health because it seems to have manifested into my nervous system which lingers and doesn't make me feel good at all I suffer numerous ailments, such as; digestive stress, anxiety and low mood. I hope others can abstain before it gets to where I am. Although I am still very lucky because many have either passed or something awful has already happened to them god forbid...
@magnetism How far is your nearest GA meeting? How far would you have gone to gamble?
Maybe there's a misconception about them but GA is about stopping gambling first and foremost through others lived experience as well as recovery through a 12 step program of change. You'll find all the answers you need right in those rooms.
Obviously you can choose your own path to your own recovery. I'm just giving you directions to a way that works on a well trodden path.
Good luck though on your recovery.
Hi magnetism there are lots of GA meetings online via zoom it doesn't have to be your area it can be any meeting I know some GA members who do multiple meetings a week over the country. It's not the same as a face to face meeting but it's a very good alternative, my group is online at the moment until at least the newyear. I would be lost without it in my recovery it keeps me grounded and the camaraderie and friendship is so valuable