I have been struggling with gambling for about 5 years, all starting when I was 13/14 years old. Since the start, I always knew I had a problem. I have been determined to stop and get my life together but I always seem to be throwing myself down the same hole. Over and over again loosing thousands a month. It's not even the money that has been thrilling me for this long, its the short rush I get when I do it, then regret sinks in.
I am debt free due to it not getting to that stage as of yet but I need to prevent this even more now as I am earning a lot of money from work.
I have a great job with a great girlfriend and I can't let it ruin anymore of my life then what it already has.
I want to track my journey through here and also share my feelings day by day.
it’s hard to get away from it all some times when we have the access so very available to are finger tips when it comes to gambling. I am sorry but also happy you had the courage to come here and post your first day of your recovery away from gambling. It is not easy as I myself have had to deal with a compulsive disorder to gamble for the past 14 years.
all I can really do for you is share my experiences.
my problem came from slot machines which moved onto online gambling which was very destructive for myself over the years but helped me get to a GA gamblers anonymous physical meetings back in November of 2016 where my head was all over the place much like your own maybe at this moment in time. The best thing we can do is admit we are powerless over this horrible addiction,
Another way to fight your addiction is by selectively or outright telling loved ones of your situation either it be your girlfriend, close friend or family. I would advise caution but use courage in this scenario.
my girlfriend and family all know about my addiction and they helped me either with managing my money or emotional support during some difficult times in my life.
I hope you come back to post the next day and hopefully I can share some more experiences which might relate to yourself when you start sharing more.
I look forward to a update,
I have placed multiple blocks with my phone carrier and also WIFI provider to stop me from accessing the gambling sites. This was followed from all the obvious blocks that I had in place. If anything, even thought i can't fully block gambling sites, I just want to ensure I put as many blocks in the way as I can.
I am feeling positive today, not going to lie, it has been super tough but I feel like with the ever growing determination I will keep going. I am most defiantly at my peak of gambling and luckily I cleared all small debts today so I am debt free, this included overdrafts and bits and bobs.
Looking forward to tomorrow to hopefully go another day!
Forgot to post yesterday as I some how ended up down the pub!!!!
Still going strong day by day and I am looking to what the future has to hold for me. Feeling a lot better in myself.
I am planning to go for a complete cold turkey from gambling as easing out has never worked.
I look forward to posting tomorrow and getting through the first weekend in a while without gambling.
Keep it up woods, yes it’s best to just stop completely and try to understand ones mind in why we head back to gambling and put blocks in place psychologically as well as physical. Some times we head back because of alcohol, feeling good, feeling bad amongst other reasons too. Literally we can end up back in gambling for the most silliest of thoughts or buttons pressed by other people some times.
I hope this weekend has been gambling free and you have taken each day as it comes. I look forward to updates
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