i believe i have a plan but tonight i am a odds with myself in a game of tug of war one side wants to stop the other wants to carry on. tomorrow i can severe a connection to online gambling if i don't talk myself out of it first.
here iam Saturday evening what a day been to my bank with intention of getting a basic bank card and enquired only to be told that i would need to pay off my overdraft first that will take until October 25th. I am sure i ahev registered with gamstop i believe that site allows after 24 hours to self exclude from over 100 gambling sites have looked at Gamban which i see includes trading sites not sure if that means share dealing sites want to close my share dealing account but cannot as i need receipts for tax purposes which means i need new for printer can buy that on monday when some money turns up in my bank account. next week will recieve call from steven james clinic for my first gambling therapy session over the phone. have had a breakdown at work lost 1000 pounds from 25 august to 10 september and that is just scratching the surface of the loss overall in 20 years of gambliing. i know there is something wrong when i can feel so low and yet feel so high like the addiction is not a problem and 11 days until payday. i don't feel like i am going to kill myself or anyone else but also have a work injury called mallet finger that will i am told 5 more weeks to heal. so much time to think so much will power to test as i have not gambled since Tuesday what will it take for me to severe the connection?