Rock bottom gets worse

Thank you Scotty and Vinnie for posting on my diary - always cheers up my day reading posts left. ?

Scotty, I hope you are having a good break away and have visited your diary. I hope to catch you in chat on your return to hear what you’ve been up to.

Vinnie, thanks for the post. Chat was really nice tonight and made me giggle.  I’m always going to laugh when I hear the words cheesecake, Batman and cats ??. Oh and feral as russ so delicately put it. ?

I doubt I’ll be in chat in the morning as it depends on how busy work is and if I’m in a meeting but if I have a free 10 mins I’ll try and pop in. Well done on reaching 200 days +  that’s an amazing achievement and you should be super proud on how far you’ve come.

Day 145

Don't update my diary as much as maybe I should these days but I do try to visit chat regularly and love to catch up with how everyone is getting on and the progress everyone is making. Today’s been a good day - a very busy day of work followed by some relaxation, a good time in chat and then McDonald’s as I couldn’t be bothered to cook. All of these things are a blessing and still feel like a novelty four and a half months on. I really do appreciate the simple things now and they make me happy. I never really understood how important these things were before. I do now!

I watched a few episodes of one of my favourite series tonight and ended up a blubbering mess when one of my favourite characters died. Lots of things have changed in the past few months but not my empathy or emotions which is something I’m pleased about. 

Off to try and get some sleep soon ready for another day.

Lovely lively♥️

I just wanted to leave you a message as your going to be 150 days gamble free tomorrow and I wanted to say a big well done. It really must take alot of strength and determination to get to 150 days and I'm so pleased for you. 

You should be proud of how far you have come from your first ever diary post to now. What a huge turn around! You're such a kind and helpful character to everyone and you truly deserve this.

I actually don't think I could have done this without your words throughout my lowest nights and I will never forget it. Thank you for all your support over the last month. You know where I am if you ever need a chat, laugh or cry. 

Elzy xx

Hi lively , 

im abit early to post but my battery’s gonna go and we both no I’m to lazy to go and get the charger ??

I just wanted to say I’m so proud of how far you’ve come , just look at you now rocking this gamble free journey and doing it well .. we’ve had are ups and downs along this journey But I’m glad we are both back on track and making each other giggle again , 

hopefully I’ll get on chat at some point tomorrow so a big well done if anyone deserves this happiness of a gamble free life it’s you ?

Congratulations Lively on your excellent progress.

I am so happy to witness you 150 Days into your gamble free adventure and feel blessed to be sharing this journey with such a wonderful and remarkable lady. You are an absolute treasure.

May I wish you every happiness as you continue on your journey.

Stephen x x x

Thank you Elzy, Vinnie and Stephen for your lovely, kind, supportive posts. 

Elzy, thank you for your words. It is almost surreal when looking back at my first few posts and just shows what time can do and the changes that take place when gf. I am happy to be on this journey with you and so glad that I was able to help you when you needed it most - helping others truly makes me happier then anything else and it is lovely to see you blossom. Thank you for the offer of an ear - likewise, if you’re ever having a really bad day, or just want to chat about anything, you know where I am 24/7. X

Vinnie, thank you for taking the time to post on my diary. You had me giggling at the first line about the phone charger ?. 

Glad to be making each other giggle again - I missed that and having someone to bounce off in chat - never mind the fact that I haven’t managed to find anyone who is on the same level of enthusiasm for food! ?? I am so proud of where we both are, with you having recently hit 200 days - we’ve both come so far!

Stephen aka Aum - Thank you for your ongoing support. I cannot believe how far we have both come since last year and am so proud to be on this journey with you. May you always be 5 days ahead of me. Even on my bad days, your kind words, humour and sparkle have kept me coming back here and I wouldn’t have made it this far if it weren’t for many gamcare friends and you will always have a special place in my heart ❤️. 

Day 150 - will update properly later on as currently I have a nice cup of coffee and a big slice of Columbian coffee and walnut cake waiting for me - my treat for 150 days. But for those of you who know me will know I can find any excuse to justify eating cake ???. 

Hi lively just popped in to say congratulations on 150 gf days you are amazing Inspiration lady how I am glad to be on this Road with I must go now mrs S is waiting to go we are going on beach with are to dogs will be.on chat in a few days when I will bring you a nice cake ? take care Your friend scotty ??❤️

Just wanted to say to anyone in chat, sorry for leaving I’m just having a bad day but I’m okay and ill be right as rain by chat this evening. Sat stuffing my face with cake and a coffee and then going to lay down for half an hour as that usually does the trick to calm down. I feel bad for leaving as don’t want anyone to worry  - the real positive is that despite feeling angry I have no desire to gamble - only to sleep ?

Hello Lively.

Just popped by to wish you a good week.

Many thanks for being the wonderful friend you are.

Stephen x 

Thank you Stephen, it will get better stephen as I won’t have to deal with the person for three weeks after today. Give it an hour or two and all will be hunky dory in lively’s world again ?

Yes stace - Thank you. ❤️ I’m just laying down for an hour to calm down and then I’ll be back to my normal self. X

My friend Lively is no fool

A lady quite refined who is looking rather cool

Worldly wise and ready for whatever lies ahead

But just for now with coffee and cake she's snuggled up in bed

Hope u feel ok and a nap has done the trick ... now the question I need to ask was it a full cake or a slice ??, on a serious note hope u feel better see u on chat tonight ?

Haha Zoe that made me smile ??.

Lively would certainly not wolf down a ?

She would just have a dainty little ?.

Q..... What did the sheet say to the pillowcase?

A......Crumbs 

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I am pleased to report after a coffee, cake and nap I am feeling back to my normal positive self. ? 

Sadly on this occasion Stephen, Zoe knows me better and it was definitely not a dainty little slice. What started off as a slice turned into half a cake ?, the other half of which I demolished yesterday. I must confess If there had of been a whole cake, I would have eaten the lot in one sitting! ??. 

Thank you Stephen, Vinnie and scotty for brightening up my day and putting a smile back on my face. 

I may be half a stone heavier but I am still gamble free ?.