Many thanks for visiting my diary Lively. Your words always strike a chord with me and your last post was no exception. As you so rightly pointed out:
"I dont need gambling as my crutch anymore as I am strong enough to stand alone."
Very wise words which I have written out in my gel pens and put up on the wall in my kitchen to help keep my thoughts focussed.
Pleased you and your lovely daughter enjoyed your outing. It is good to get out and about.
Wishing you a super duper weekend
Love and best wishes from Stephen x
As you can probably guess by the time...I can't sleep...again 😕 so instead I've read your diary, from start to finish, wow, how amazing are you!! From the evening you were sitting in your car contemplating what you were, too scared to go home, to now, such a strong supportive women who is doing absolutely amazing. It says it all in your name how much youve changed, from 'lonely soul' to 'lively soul'. You have supported me from day1, always being there. You are a HUGE asset to gamcare. The way you always support everyone, you always know what to say and you are so so kind.
I want to say thankyou. Thankyou so much for your continued support. Your amazing ♥️ you've turned your life around and I hope I can turn around in 10,20,30,40 and more days and say I'm still gf.
Take care, hope your sleep gets better soon too, I know what it's like not getting enough sleep ♥️
Many thanks for visiting my diary Lively. Your kind words and great sense of humour brought a smile to my face I am indeed enjoying luxurious porridge every morning 🤣😂.
As you rightly point out, our finances do improve as we progress on our gamble free journeys but it is winning back our freedom that is the biggest cause for celebration. For a long time we existed under the tyrannical rule of gambling addiction but them days are over.
We now choose what we want to do with our lives, we make the decisions and we accept responsibility for our actions.
We have the power, we have the knowledge and we will succeed👍.
I enjoyed reading the above post by Stace and totally agree with her sentiments. You are indeed an amazing lady and I am always inspired by your courage, wisdom and understanding.
Wishing you a super duper weekend.
Ps. I will give the chatroom a miss this evening as the rain has stopped so will go for a walk but look forward to seeing you in there over the weekend.
I read your whole story last week and it was very very emotional, from the sitting in the car with your £1 cheeseburger all the way to where you are now. However, I've just read it again as I feel I was more ready to take it in now I know what was coming.
It really made me realise and remember how bad gambling can be and the dark places it can take you but also how amazing life can be without it and that anyone can turn it around even when you think there's no hope.
I think reading your story has motivated me even more than the fact I've lost a lot of money gambling as I think when you read someone else's transformation it gives you so much more motivation as you can see a real life example of seeing someone turn their life around, so thank you 🙂 And good luck on the rest of your journey! I look forward to more positive updates...
Hi Stephen and JMW,
Thank you for both of your lovely supportive posts on my diary. Stephen, I have just dropped by your diary to check in with you.
JMW, thank you for taking the time to read my diary TWICE.
Gambling can indeed take you to dark places, darker than most places we have been before but I can assure you that with time away from gambling, happiness can be found and most importantly, it allows you to find YOU again which is the most important thing we lose, far more then the money. I wish you well on your journey and will look out for your diary to see how you are getting on.
Day 141 - I cannot believe where the last 41 days have disappeared since hitting 100 days and very quickly approaching my next target of 150. When I reflect on the last few years I’m sometimes sad I didn’t tackle this properly earlier, however, I then also think this is what has led me to where I am today and maybe things would be different or worse in a different way - I will never know. What I do know is that I am happy! Not the fake happy that I use to pretend to be to put on a show but genuinely happy and enjoying what life has to offer. No more fake smiles or the false “I am okay”. I have never felt so light footed and free from carrying heavy loads on my shoulders. This is the life I choose now, and for the rest of my future. There will be good and bad times ahead but I now have the mental strength to get through these without feeling like I’m chained and at the bottom of a hole.
I am no longer my own prisoner.
Good morning lively I hope you are well I have had a bad a very bad chest infection but I am much better now I have had no bad dreams for the past few nights I had to fight the demons on Tuesday but I feel very proud that I won and can say I am still gamble 😊 just got to win the seizures battle now I think that could be a bigger battle but sun is out and going for walk now with my dogs your friend scotty 🍌🍌
Hi lively good morning I hope you are well and not working to hard I will be away from chat for a few day we are packing are campervan and off to west wales Newquay to have some R&R hope you are well I miss you by a few mins on Sunday so sad to see one of are gam-care family struggling I seem to have stop dreaming this week I hope it continues Thanks for listening your friend scotty ❤️🍌🍌🍌
Thank you Scotty and Vinnie for posting on my diary - always cheers up my day reading posts left. 🙂
Scotty, I hope you are having a good break away and have visited your diary. I hope to catch you in chat on your return to hear what you’ve been up to.
Vinnie, thanks for the post. Chat was really nice tonight and made me giggle. I’m always going to laugh when I hear the words cheesecake, Batman and cats 😂🤣. Oh and feral as russ so delicately put it. 😂
I doubt I’ll be in chat in the morning as it depends on how busy work is and if I’m in a meeting but if I have a free 10 mins I’ll try and pop in. Well done on reaching 200 days + that’s an amazing achievement and you should be super proud on how far you’ve come.
Don't update my diary as much as maybe I should these days but I do try to visit chat regularly and love to catch up with how everyone is getting on and the progress everyone is making. Today’s been a good day - a very busy day of work followed by some relaxation, a good time in chat and then McDonald’s as I couldn’t be bothered to cook. All of these things are a blessing and still feel like a novelty four and a half months on. I really do appreciate the simple things now and they make me happy. I never really understood how important these things were before. I do now!
I watched a few episodes of one of my favourite series tonight and ended up a blubbering mess when one of my favourite characters died. Lots of things have changed in the past few months but not my empathy or emotions which is something I’m pleased about.
Off to try and get some sleep soon ready for another day.
I just wanted to leave you a message as your going to be 150 days gamble free tomorrow and I wanted to say a big well done. It really must take alot of strength and determination to get to 150 days and I'm so pleased for you.
You should be proud of how far you have come from your first ever diary post to now. What a huge turn around! You're such a kind and helpful character to everyone and you truly deserve this.
I actually don't think I could have done this without your words throughout my lowest nights and I will never forget it. Thank you for all your support over the last month. You know where I am if you ever need a chat, laugh or cry.
Hi lively ,
im abit early to post but my battery’s gonna go and we both no I’m to lazy to go and get the charger 😂🤣
I just wanted to say I’m so proud of how far you’ve come , just look at you now rocking this gamble free journey and doing it well .. we’ve had are ups and downs along this journey But I’m glad we are both back on track and making each other giggle again ,
hopefully I’ll get on chat at some point tomorrow so a big well done if anyone deserves this happiness of a gamble free life it’s you 😘
Congratulations Lively on your excellent progress.
I am so happy to witness you 150 Days into your gamble free adventure and feel blessed to be sharing this journey with such a wonderful and remarkable lady. You are an absolute treasure.
May I wish you every happiness as you continue on your journey.
Stephen x x x
Thank you Elzy, Vinnie and Stephen for your lovely, kind, supportive posts.
Elzy, thank you for your words. It is almost surreal when looking back at my first few posts and just shows what time can do and the changes that take place when gf. I am happy to be on this journey with you and so glad that I was able to help you when you needed it most - helping others truly makes me happier then anything else and it is lovely to see you blossom. Thank you for the offer of an ear - likewise, if you’re ever having a really bad day, or just want to chat about anything, you know where I am 24/7. X
Vinnie, thank you for taking the time to post on my diary. You had me giggling at the first line about the phone charger 😂.
Glad to be making each other giggle again - I missed that and having someone to bounce off in chat - never mind the fact that I haven’t managed to find anyone who is on the same level of enthusiasm for food! 😂🤣 I am so proud of where we both are, with you having recently hit 200 days - we’ve both come so far!
Stephen aka Aum - Thank you for your ongoing support. I cannot believe how far we have both come since last year and am so proud to be on this journey with you. May you always be 5 days ahead of me. Even on my bad days, your kind words, humour and sparkle have kept me coming back here and I wouldn’t have made it this far if it weren’t for many gamcare friends and you will always have a special place in my heart ❤️.
Day 150 - will update properly later on as currently I have a nice cup of coffee and a big slice of Columbian coffee and walnut cake waiting for me - my treat for 150 days. But for those of you who know me will know I can find any excuse to justify eating cake 😂🤣🎂.
Hi lively just popped in to say congratulations on 150 gf days you are amazing Inspiration lady how I am glad to be on this Road with I must go now mrs S is waiting to go we are going on beach with are to dogs will be.on chat in a few days when I will bring you a nice cake 🎂 take care Your friend scotty 🍌🍌❤️