i can assure you my friend that the 10k you have lost will turn to 100k and more if you keep going.
I have been on an off gambling for 35 years and since I was a wee boy and relapsed numerous times and it gets worse and worse.
You will lose girlfriends,wives,houses and everything meaningful in life to this disease if you keep going - you nor any compulsive gambler will ever have enough - I bet so I can bet not so I can live.
As Einstein said the meaning of insanity is to keep doing the same thing time and time again and expect a different outcome.
I have been insane way too long with this illness,take my word for it - stop now and you will have a future,keep going and your future is bleak.Same goes for me...
I've just updated as had a look at what you've lost and what advice you've had off my site family as we're all here for each other plus we all know what its like to have an addiction to that evil gambling, I won't tell you what to do but until your honest and tell your partner they're that chance you could be chasing your loss so as your partner won't find out and the worst thing I've read is you've had big wins therefore believing you can do this again but that's what they wont you to think but try and put your past down to a loss and get yourself gamble free therefore saving money in the future but think about your partner and what support you'd get rather than her finding out
I know when I have tried quitting before I have always known in the back of my mind I will gamble again. I would always think I’ll just have £5 on the golf and do the lotto. My most recent attempt at quitting I have accepted finally that I can’t control my gambling and whether it be a day week month or year I will self destruct at some point.
Until you finally come to terms with the reality that you can’t gamble ever again it will only be a matter of time before you do, that’s why take one day at a time some days are easier than others. Personally I have to put barriers in place otherwise I will be vulnerable. I too used to be very in to horses and owning some as well. Honestly I miss it but have accepted I can’t gamble on it. I could never imagine not betting on Cheltenham ascot etc but I just can’t. Stay strong mate keep posting