The mists are beginning to clear after last weeks period of self isolation. To those who are going through the same or about to i send positive thoughts.
Was a priviledge to be part of chat in both todays sessions. Fun, honesty and all there for the same purpose.
Have had a couple of gambling thoughts creep in recently. Addiction has been calling at my weakest point trying to convince me a punt would be fun.
A sustained period of excercise beckons. Football and badminton tomorrow. Football friday night and sunday afternoon.
Saturday allows me a treat at a bird of prey centre and being able to fly some Harris Hawks will be unique. My family clubbed together to get me the experience as a christmas gift last year however covid has made things difficult. I am humbled for such a wonderful gift.
Mentally now getting stronger and excercise will play a large part towards this.
I wish you all weĺl
Well done in resisting your urges. I ask you just one thing. I know a Harris Hawk is a beautiful and fine bird of prey. 🦅 But can you please keep it away from my pond as it is a predator of toad.
The last time I was in danger was the 4.30 at Kempton and we all know how that ended.
On this day 32 years ago i joined the best job in the world as a PC in the Met Police. Made friendships. Was part of a team. Met people who i protected and who protected me.
Turned sour as the 1st mrs Bal died and i resigned. From then i became a compulsive gambler.
Tonight i have thoughts with joy and sadness in equal measures. I mourn the loss of colleagues and friends but i hold onto my memories.
I celebrate my rock, my new wife. I am over 5 years gamble free due to the support she has provided. For that i am humbled.
I am not perfect but i am giving it a go.