94 days gamble free for me so why start a diary now?
Well it's quite simple really. I have come so far and never ever want to go back to those dark, horrible, days ever of lumping every penny I had into a bookies FOBT.
This nearly cost me my marriage and despite a big debt we are working through it.
I have only started posting recently on this site and have taken great inspiration from the diaries and successes of others in getting over this horrible horrible addiction. And this site is proof it can be done.
At present (and for the last 94 days) I have had no access to money or cards which has helped me no end!!. But at some stage I will get them back but not at the moment. I do not want them back. Wifey gives me pennies and I provide receipts. Easy!!
The urges have lessened but I still want to completely focus on beating this hence the diary.
Thanks for listening everybody and thanks for all the inspiration.
Keep posting all and best wishes.
Wifey has announced we are going on a cruise around the Black Sea next year so better continue to save those pennies. Couldn't have planned this when addicted to the FOBT. Time we go should coincide with stopping gambling for over a year. Double celebration.
Also the issue about having to lose 4 stone which I put on through gambling stress eating.
Salad for lunch tomorrow.