I have had a gambling problem for many years, i have no idea how much i have lost but its thousands.I am left with debts of about 30k which i will pay off over about 3 years.
25/11/20 is the day i last placed a bet and i never want to place another.
I want to build relationships and get my life back, i will pay off these debts by working and earning.The dream of winning big has gone its time to get real.
This is only day 2 but i am positive and fully committed.
I am now onto day 5 without gambling, the weekend was a big test with so much football and horse racing on. The fact i have used gamstop was a big help as had i not i may have crumbled.
I haven't contributed much on here i hope i don't appear selfish or that i am all about me. Once i get a bit further into my own journey i aim to use my experiences etc to support and try help others as others have done with me.
One thing i have noticed and has really angered me is the amount of gambling adverts there are on tv, yes i have noticed more because i am trying to give up but the volume of adverts seems excessive.
Sorry just ranting
Sorry i have not been on here much this past week.I am now onto my 16th day GF i have it easier this time with having gamstop and self exclusion in place.
I know i am only 16 days in but this time feels different, i feel mentally stronger and more determined than ever. A big driving force this time is i hate gambling, it has ruined so many lives, i have wasted so much of my life gambling and i refuse to ever place a bet again.
I was in such a dark hole before and as long as i remained in that hole i never had a proper look at myself and my gambling.
I still have regrets and guilt however as each day passes that eases a little. I am only 41 and can be debt free by the time i am 44.
Thankyou all for reading and continued support
Hi, nothing to be sorry about and 16 days is 16 great achievements, no matter how far people have got don't forget we all start on day 1 which is the hardest day of them all.
I know what you mean about hating gambling, I think it's as our minds clear from the fog of the addiction. I now have total contempt for gambling companies and their adverts especially when watching sport. They make it sound so easy to control, which I suppose for a lot of people is, but us as compulsive gamblers know how it can destroy lives.
Well done and keep going!