No looking back

? No one saves us, but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves walk the path ?

Life is so hard. And yes support during very difficult times help, but ultimately it comes from us to save ourselves, no one else can save us. ?

Stay strong, keep safe

Today is not a good day. My mood is low and things have happened which I'm not sure what to do. Not gambled though. 4 weeks today. 

?????

So overwhelmed,  just want to scream, shout, cry, talk , hide. Agghhhh ???

*not gambled

I won't gamble...

Tonight is the first night in over 4 weeks that I have urges to gamble. I'm so tired and stressed.

I won't gamble

Hi Stace 

How are you ?

From seeing on your diary seems the last few days have been difficult, keep going strong you have got this 

Holly 

xx 

Hi Holly.. thanks for your post. Hope your well

Xx

Think I'm hitting 6 weeks gamble free next week. Really don't know how I've managed it with the things going on in my life right now, feel like I'm being hit with c**P from all directions. 

I'm so tired but can't sleep. Hungry but can't eat. 

Minds like a washing machine stuck on the spin cycle ?

Aww, sorry to hear there's stuff stressing you out. You're doing so good, staying away from gambling, this early on, when you're going through a hard time.

Just think - if you can stay away when it's hard, you will find it easy when things smooth out a bit.

Thankyou freda xx

??.FEAR.??

Fear has two meanings...

Forget Everything and Run

OR

Face Everything and Rise

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I have been running away from it all but it catches up with you, so no matter how scary, no matter how hard it is, I'm slowly facing everything,, I can't hide no more.

6 weeks gf, no idea how I'm doing it, but in doing it ?

Well done on the 6 weeks Stace, you are on this track for good now despite the other challenges in your life which you are facing.

Captain 

Thankyou captain..

Its so hard but I won't go back. 6 weeks gf and il keep going forward 

Well done Stace 6 weeks is fantastic 
Even when things have been difficult you have overcome it and not gambled you should be very proud 

Holly 

xx

Ever get so scared and anxious that it feels like you can actually feel your heart thumping in your chest. That's me today. Will have an answer to something by the end if the day and I am terrified. I'm shaking, I've thrown up, not slept in 2 days, not eaten for a few days, feel like I may pass out from pure stress. Wish this was over. I'm on edge, I jump when my phone rings incase its that person.. what a mess, what a mess. Depending on this outcome today... if its the worst case then I'm done.. cant fight no more